Sometimes we tend to deny our feelings to someone because we knew that there is something wrong with him/her.

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Eponine

Last Monday, me and my classmates watched Les Miserables in SM Calamba. Actually, I don't have plans in watching this---but when I heard that its an award winning movie, I told myself, why don't watch it? Besides, my friend Melanie really loves to watch it. I joined her with my friends even if we are 12 minutes late on the showing of the movie.

Honestly, at first, I really don't enjoy watching the movie. It seems boring to me. I'm not a fan of musicals---or should I say, I really don't watch musicals. I have watched but its just because my professor in Humanities required us to watch 2 musical movies. I didn't enjoy it so when I found out that its a musical movie---even award winning---I expect myself to get bored in the movie.

But later part, I was thrilled. And understand the movie...but my feelings didn't get attached until the big Eponine come out.

Eponine is the daughter of Thenardiér and Madame Thenardiér---an inn owner and also "thieves" in the movie. She grew up with Cosette whom the Thenardiér's treat like a maid when she was still a child. Cosette is like "Cinderella" (I even told it with my friend Melanie) and Eponine is like her step sister. Eponine is treated like a princess when they were still young and Cosette is like a pauper. But years later, things in Thenardiér's family is not the same. They became poorer but still Eponine's parents is still thieves.

Eponine has a huge unrequited crush on Marius---a dashing student revolutionary. She is in love with him. But Marius just see him as a friend. Because I didn't read the Les Miserables book or even read a review of it, I didn't know what will happen. So I just thought that maybe, Eponine will be the third party between Cosette and Marius. She's the villain. 

BUT I AM WRONG.

I have late reactions in this movie, actually. I never cried in the movie house but I get more attached to Eponine when the movie is already finished. I realized how martyr she was and I feel so pity because of what happened to her. All she wants in the world is to be loved by Marius---to be in his arms. It happened...but after that, she died. She died in the arms of Marius...

Her love for Marius is so pathethic. Even if she already knew that Marius have a huge thing for Cosette, she still pines for him. Maybe some other people will think her characters is not the goody-goody type like Cosette but I still like her! I actually LOVE her! Maybe because I am more in love with the characters who have bad sides, or should I say not adorable but have a tough personality.

And God, the song "On My Own" really made me cry when I got home and raped the replay button in Youtube. I immediately download the song and until now, I'm still having LSS. I love all the lines and I pity Eponine more while she's singing this... It was so heart breaking for her... especially this lines:

"Without me, his world will go on turning... A world that's full of happiness that I have never known... I love him... But only on my own."

Her character really inspires me a lot. And yes, I'm gonna soon make a character like Eponine. Not maybe a bad Eponine... but a martyr Eponine. And I am so excited about it!!!!


xx
Cady



Sunday, January 20, 2013

Family Day!

Today is an unexpected day. Well, unexpected din kasi na magkakaroon kami ng Family Day ngayong Sunday. Wala talaga sa plan na magsisimba kami ni Mommy sa Born Again Church at matutuloy kami sa Tagaytay.

Yes, you see it right. Nagsimba po kami sa Born Again Church with my Family. My brother---nagsisimba kasi siya doon because of her girlfriend and niyaya niya kami this morning na doon na lang kami magsimba instead of sa Catholic Church. Siyempre noong una nahihiya pa ako, pero napa-"oo" naman si Mommy kaya `yun, nawala iyong plano naming Mcdo after church sana. Hehe! It went well naman and ang saya lang kasi feeling ko, bumalik ako sa pagka-YFC dahil feeling ko um-attend ako ng 2 hour youth conference. :) Plus the added fact na super bait nila at feel namin na welcome kami sa kanila.

Then after the church, nagpunta kami sa Tagaytay at kasama rin namin GF ni Kuya.  Medyo malapit lang doon sa church iyong Tagaytay. Ahmmm... About 30 minutes or so iyong biyahe dahil via Talisay naman kami dumaan. Gutom na kami kasi almost 12 na yata natapos iyong church and medyo traffic pa doon sa Tagaytay. Kumain kami sa Mushroom Burger na ewan ko ba kung bakit maraming tao to think na mukha lang naman siyang bahay. Hahaha! Satisfied naman ako sa food and price ng food doon. Saka kakaiba rin kasi iyong food kasi gawa sa mushroom kaya maraming kumakain.

Sandali lang kami actually sa Tagaytay. Halos kumain lang ng lunch tapos tinignan iyong view ng Taal Volcano then bumili ng saging. Hahaha. (oo, saging talaga) Si Mommy kasi, di naman siya puwedeng gumala nang matagal kasi may sakit siya. But anyway, its okay. At least, nakagala kami `di ba? Ang saya lang kasi hindi naman siya plano pero kompleto kami. Yay! Ang tagal-tagal na kasi nang huli naming magawa iyong ganoon, eh. Hindi naman kasi kami iyong family na super close to each other. Well, except for me and my Mom na best friend ko. Si Kuya kasi...medyo malayo. And tapos kasama namin siya at siya pa nag-recommend na sa Tagaytay kami pumunta. Yay! So over all, its a happy day. Thank you Lord :)





xx
Cady

Monday, January 14, 2013

Writing plans for 2013

Hello! I am back again. Its so cold today `no? Ewan ko kung dito lang ba sa Batangas ganyan pero sa Laguna ay ganyan rin naman kanina. (Well, I live in the first then studied on the latter thats why I feel both XD) And dahil tapos na ang prelim exams namin (clap-clap-clap) may free time na ako para makapag-post ulit! Yey! ~~

So today I'm going to write all my writing plans for 2013... and the stories I want to write were just few. Bakit? Because this year would be (I think) the hardest year for a student/writer like me.

I am in my 3rd year college now so next school year, I'll be in my 4th year and they say the hardest year in all years in college. Shocks! Akalain mo iyon, halos isang taon na lang, matatapos na akong mag-aral! Yey! Kaya naman kahit ilang beses ng sumasagi sa isip ko na ayaw ko ng mag-aral ay tyinatyaga ko na lang. My subjects for this sem is not that easy. Or I'll say, this sem is the hardest among the semester that I've taken. Kaya naman hindi iisang beses na naiisip kong tumigil na. Pero ngayon pa ba ako susuko? Eh tapos na ako sa Financial Accounting. Hehe! (Yan na lang palagi kong iniisip, eh) Well, anyway, that's not the point here.

2013 will be a busy day for me. May summer class ako this summer and we have feasibilty study on my 4th year 1st sem. So wala akong bakasyon! Plus the fact that I am losing my concentration in writing... :( So iyong mga ipo-post kong plans dito ay hindi ko pa sure kung magagawa ko lahat. But I'm hoping! *cross fingers*

So here it is:

Camp Speed 8: Just A Kiss

This will be my entry for my modern fairytale concept assignment for our brainstorming last December. And its like the Princess and the Frog story between me...?! (hi-hi) and Zeb. :P And I'm currently writing this so...wish me luck! XD

The Playboy Millionaires 3: Treasure With Price

The last book for my trilogy! I already passed the 2nd so hindi ko na include si Stock sa plans ko sa 2013. This would be a different kind of story dahil sa setting nito and the activity na gagawin ng mga characters dito. Another challenge for me. But I'm hoping na makaya kong gawin ito. Nakuha ko kasi ang plot nito sa auction plot sa brainstorming rin namin.

Loving The Playboy

Actually, wala na talaga akong balak na gawin ito, eh. Pero dahil na-open ito ni Ate Abby sa akin last December noong nagkita-kita kami, pinag-iisipan kong gawin. And...nakaisip na rin ako ng mismong plot ko para sa story na ito... na mukhang magiging true to life. Chos!

Ares Story

Yay! Ikaw na naman, Ares! Hindi ko ito sure kung gagawin ko pa siya pero...masyado kong love si Artemis kaya talagang pag-iisipan kong mabuti ang plot niya. Haay! I want her to have a Mom para maging happy na rin siya. Pero masakit talaga sa ulo si Ares kasi...two times na siyang na-returned! Yay!

Love Lottery

This would be a mini-series na gusto kong gawin since na-inspired ako doon sa "How to lasso a cowboy" ni Miss Shirley Jump. Para rin itong iyong una kong trilogy na ginawa---w/c is parang matchmaking agency. But this would be 4 books kaya Mini-series.


And iyong iba palang sa Camp Speed rin... :P


And... yan lang! Sana magawa ko talaga sila. Please pray for me. And my sanity. :P


xx

Cady

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

Its so complicated. I am so frustrated.

This is my first post in the blog for this year. And uhhh... hindi masyadong maganda ang ilalabas ko... Kasi napu-frustrate ako.

Its really hard if you make complicated love stories---at dahil sinubukan ko na naman ito... Ayan! Nagdudusa na naman ako.

Last Wednesday, I passed the second installment for my trilogy and just this Monday, I received the feedback. I am shocked dahil super bilis. As in, wala pang one week, meron na. But well, dahil ipinasok ko siguro itong plot nito sa mga brainstorming plots namin kaya ganoon kabilis. It was for revision. At dahil matagal-tagal na rin simula nang magka-revision ako, hirap na hirap ako. Hehehe! Or maybe... nahihirapan talaga akong ayusin ang MS na ito.

It was not a romance-comedy type kaya siguro ganoon ito. Hindi ko rin masasabing drama... or ewan. Hehe! Pero feeling ko ang complicated. Lalo na kapag may dark past ang isa sa mga charatcers. At dahil may deadline ito, lalo akong nape-pressure. Then ang dami pa naming assignments at may exams pa ako sa Saturday.. So naiipit ako sa dapat kong unahin at gawin. Plus the added fact na "challenge" ang novel na ito para sa akin. First time kong gumawa ng ganitong klaseng heroine... Lalo na at mayroon akong "way" ng pagsusulat sa trilogy ko na ito. Hindi ko alam kung babaguhin ko ba ang way na iyon for the sake of this revision... pero sana makaya ko na hindi. Ahhhh! I don't know what to do. Excited na kasi akong isulat ang isa kong MS tapos nagka-feedback naman agad ito. Hehehe! Haay, pero okay na rin. At least for revision. Nahihirapan lang talaga akong mag-elaborate.

Ang non-sense ng post ko. Nag-rants na naman.

xx
Cady