Help me, Lord.

Semi-finals. Unfinished manuscripts. Seatworks. Homeworks. Quizzes. These are the things that makes me bothered this week. Pakiramdam ko, mababaliw na ako sa kakaisip. Idagdag pa na gustong-gusto kong magsulat.

Haay. Kanina, pinasa ko na naman si Athena. May feedback na siya last week and returned option to revise siya. Nakakaiyak lang? He-he. Ewan ko. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, okay lang. Pero ewan ko. Sinunod ko naman ang sinabi ng editor this time. May twist at hindi naman yata common ang conflict ko, I think? Mababaw lang. He-he.  Pero kinakabahan pa din ako. Parang ang bilis ng phasing kahit ang dami ko ng eksena. Ewan ko. pero sana perception ko lang un.

And anyway, naipasa ko na si Ares last time... Ayaw ko buksan ang file. Ayaw kong makakita ng mali. Actually, naiiyak ako. Hirap na hirap ako sa story niya. Dugo't pawis. Kaya kung sakaling ma-returned, feeling ko, iiyak ako. :(((

Kaya Lord God. I feel so down talaga this days... Ang hirap ng mga subjects ko, nahihirapan din ako mag-concentrate. Idagdag pa ang ibang personal kong problema. But I won't give up, `di ba? I can do this.

all izz well.

Azec Chase ♥

Life in BS Accountancy

Hey. Good eve. I'm just browsing my notes in my FB account when I saw this and I decided, even if I can't relate by now because I'm not an accountancy student anymore, to post it. Anyway, I've been a part and I know I will still do this things because I'm still in business course. My 2nd course have also an "accounting" in its name so accounting is also part of it.

...big yellow sheets

...several huge notebooks

...brain-whacking terms

...millions of numbers

...struggling calculators

...statements to finish

...feasibility study

...life-long practice

...thick books to read

...rushing late night work

...ugly eye bags

...unbalance sum

...financial reports

...accuracy problems

...toxic lifestyle

...constant lack of sleep

...nose bleeding final exam

...heart stopping results

...die hard friendships

...people call it “ACCOUNTANCY”...

we call it “LIFE”!

So TRUE. I've been there and its really hell. So Accounting majors, relate? :)

Azec Chase. ♥

A poem to remember

Napapansin ko, matagal-tagal na din ako di nakakapag-post. Mga 10 days or more na? Ang dami ko nga sana gusto sabihin. But I am afraid na baka mabasa nang mga taong hindi dapat makabasa. Hahaha. Kaya poems na lang ang ipagpo-post ko. 

This poem is dedicated to my 2nd year classmates--the Alexandrians. :) Ang pinakamakulit na section sa buong highschool department yata noon. So here it is:

SA ALEXANDER PULOS KAKULITAN

MGA KAKLASE NAMI'Y NAGLALAKIHAN

ANG PISO DITO'Y PALAGING PINAGLALARUAN

ANG IBA NAMAN AY LAGING NAGTUTULUGAN

SI MIGUEL AT GARY AY PALAGI NG TULOG

SI AVERY AT GARNET NAMAN AY KALOG

ANG PANG-ASAR NAMAN KAY JUVINAL AY ITLOG

ANG MUKHA NAMAN NI ROAN AY BILOG

MARAMI DITO ANG MAGKAKABARKADA

JEWELS AT SPARTANS ANG NANGUNGUNA

SPADZ GIRLS ANG GRUPO NILA BERNA

KARABOYZ NAMAN ANG BARKADA NG IBA

ANG GANDA GANDA NI MS. CORONADO

ASTIG AT BAGETS NAMAN IBA NAMING GURO

TULAD NA LANG NI MS. SUMAGUE AT SIR PARDUCHO

NGUNIT KAMI AY SUKI NA SA D.O.

NOONG INTRAMS KAMI AY NANALO

NA OVER-ALL SA BUONG DEPARTAMENTO

SA BASKETBALL AT VOLLEYBALL KAMI AY PANALO

AT KAKAUNTI LAMANG ANG AMING TALO

KAHIT KAMI AY LAGING PINAGAGALITAN

MAYROON DIN KAMING PUSONG NASASAKTAN

KAYA SANA KAMI AY INYONG MAINTINDIHAN

AT PAGPASENSYAHAN SA AMING KAKULITAN...

Azec Chase ♥

Untitled poem

Hi. Good evening :) I just want to share this poem I made a year ago. Its entitled Untitled because I didn't give a title in my original copy which I wrote in a notebook. I missed doing poems but I'm not in a mood to do one tonight thats why I'm just looking for my old notebooks to post one. So here it is:

I'm alive, I'm breathing, My heart is beating

When I'm with you, I always love this feeling

Can you let me call you my everything?

Because without you, my world is nothing

If this is what they called love,

I must thank the GOD above

Because he give me this beautiful love like a dove

And I feel like I am so fab

Ugly things turn pretty when I'm with you

How I wish I can call you my boo

But still, I thank you for caring me like I do

Because this world is odd without you

I love you, thats all I want to hear

I hope you can speak it to my dear

Or you can whisper it in my ear

For this love is the love that I will never fear

Azec Chase ♥

Conversation with God

Good evening. I just saw an inspiring conversation/story with/about God in a facebook fan page. I find it nice so I decided to post it here. GOD is really GOOD.

Me: God, can I ask You a question?

God: Sure

Me: Promise You won't get mad

God: I promise

Me: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today?

God: What do u mean?

Me: Well, I woke up late

God: Yes

Me: My car took forever to start

God: Okay

Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait

God: Huummm

Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call

God: All right

Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn't work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that?

God: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one

of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that

Me (humbled): OH

GOD: I didn't let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.

Me: (ashamed)

God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn't want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn't afford to miss work.

Me (embarrassed):Okay

God: Your phone went dead bcuz the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn't even let you talk to them so you would be covered.

Me (softly): I see God

God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn't think you wanted to be in the dark.

Me: I'm Sorry God

God: Don't be sorry, just learn to Trust Me.... in All things , the Good & the bad.

Me: I will trust You.

God: And don't doubt that My plan for your day is Always Better than your plan.

Me: I won't God. And let me just tell you God, Thank You for Everything today.

God: You're welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I Love looking after My Children.

 So even if you do have a bad day, still, don't forget to thank God. Everything happens for a reason. :)

Azec Chase ♥

No internet connection

Hi. It’s already 12:16 am here in my laptop clock when I started writing this post in MS word. Yeah, you saw it right. MS word. I wrote it there because we don’t have an internet connection yesterday and today. It sucks. Bigtime. I feel like I’m missing everything in the cyber world.

I feel so miserable without having an internet. I’m used to it and the thought of losing it makes me feel of a slow murder. Many will say that I’m addicted with it but I don’t give a damn. I feel like I will die without  internet. No facebook, twitter, yahoo and most of all, no GOOGLE TALK.

I missed him so much. We don't have much time to talk about things lately. I know---I feel it in his mails/offline messages that he misses me, too. *sighs. I badly wanted to talk to HIM for the things that happened to me these past few days. I wanted to know also the things that happened to him. I really miss him. Last last week, I was busy finishing a manuscript so I seldom chat him. Last week, I was busy too, finishing City Hunter and studying. I’m always the one who will said, “let’s talk later”. Then this week, the problem is the internet connection. Uggh. I know we don’t have a relationship (maybe, an official one? Har-har) But I can’t control this urge in me to feel sad if I saw him offline when I love to see him online.

So they say, absence makes the heart grows fonder. And maybe thats what I am feeling right now.

Azec Chase ♥