Status: Mentally Dating.

Last day of the month, last post for the month. Yay! I can't believe the month of May is coming too soon. Time flies so fast.

Anyway, I want to share my current status right now. I'm mentally dating. I'm mentally dating Arjun Kapoor. Hi-hi!

On my last post, I've blog about my top 10 bollywood movies and on the number four spot is the movie Ishaqzaade. That is where I first saw my---oh wait! That's not the first moment I laid my eyes on Arjun. I first saw him on a picture on Siddharth Malhotra's(My another imaginary boyfriend) fan page. He was with Siddharth and some of the bollywood artist too. I saw one person commented, "Arjun Kapoor". I was actually distracted by that guy because he looks like my dream guy---tall, dark, handsome guy with stubbles! Hahaha. So I researched about him and saw that he has a movie---Ishaqzaade. I immediately watch and okay, I fell in love with him. He's just too gorgeous I'm feeling too hot even if its already evening that I watch. Hahaha!

He's in a bad role in the movie. I thought at first he was okay. That he first love Zoya. But its just only a joke. I was too frustrated when I cant find the part two of the movie since the video's of the other parts are not working on the site I'm watching. I forget about that and told myself I will watch tomorrow since I have class the next day. On school, I was so distracted by thinking of the movie and also because of him. Hahaha! I even make his picture as my wallpaper so everytime I will look at my phone, I will feel kilig. Mehehe! And after class, I immediately find the other parts of the movie. But unfortunately, I really can't find parts who have english subtitles so I was forced to download the whole movie and find subtitles in the internet. I watched it and gosh, he was really hot. I fell in love with him even if he was a bad boy. And even if they commit suicide in the end. ><

Anyway, why do I told the story of that movie? Hahaha. Its just Arjun I'm going to blog about. That bad boy , the thief who stole a precious organ in my body---my heart. I used the power of the internet to know him more. I read his profile on wikipedia and articles about him. I like his fan page and even follow his twitter account. But the sad thing is that twitter account I followed is only a poser.

On Sunday, I feel so happy when he tweeted something. He just tweet and I'm so happy. I even tweeted that and what if he replied to my tweet? What I am going to do? Then by some miracle, he really replied! I almost shout on my room because of too much happiness. But I found out that was just a poser account. Its not really Arjun. I thought it was because it does have a thousand of followers. So my fantasy was... T___T Someone told me Arjun doesn't have a twitter account. He said that on media. But we are hoping that someday, he'll have. :D

Yesterday, I was browsing photos of him on tumblr so I downloaded almost all of them. Hahaha! I think that's just give the drive to me on writing this manuscript I'm currently working. I reached my quota yesterday which is not so me on the past few days. Hahaha. So thank you for Arjun Kapoor---my latest mental date. Hahaha. Here's some of the pictures I download on tumblr y/day.

Badboy looking, Arjun. I hope he's really not using that. Hahaha.

Arjun: Hey Cady, want to swim with me?

What are you looking at, Babe?

Smiling at me? 

My current wallpaper in laptop :D

On Ishaqzaade's film. Soooooo...bad. HAHAHA

My Arjun hugging my another imaginary boyfriend Ranbir Kapoor. Oh love.

Why do you look sad when you've won?

I love their team :)

Arjun w/ his co-artist on 2 states. I'm so glad he's working w/ my favorite bollywood actress Priyanka Chopra :)

OMG, Shahid, what are you doing with my Arjun? Hahaha

This is one of my favorite part in Ishaqzaade. Hahaha. :)

xx

Cady

My top 10 Bollywood films

These days, I'm getting addicted to Bollywood films. And all I can say is that the 3 hours time I spent on every movies are all worth it. I'm a Filipino but I idolized their films. Their movies are so great that even if I also spend much time in finding their movies in the internet with subtitles, I'm not giving a damn. I love it all :3

Most of their movies pertains to reality. Here, movies were not like that. Some of their movies are tragic and that makes me more intersted in theirs. Well, maybe because I love looking at the reality side. I maybe a romance writer and many people think believe in fantasy but actually, I'm more stick into what really life is. So here am I, getting addicted with those films.

NOTE: Sorry for the wrong grammars. :P

10. Student Of The Year

Dean Yoginder Vashisht (Rishi Kapoor), retired, has fallen gravely ill. Several students from his final year at St. Theresa's College rush to his side. In flashbacks, they all recall the events that none of them have gotten over yet, including the dean, and how the "Student of the Year" competition shaped who they were, how they related, and what they've become.

*I must say I include this on the list because of Siddharth. LOL. The story is not that great...but they have the perfect lead roles! I love you Siddharth Malhotra. It was just so hot watching this film. HAHAHA!

9.  Vivah

Vivah is the story of the engagement period of Prem (Shahid Kapoor), an upper-class business manager, and Poonam (Amrita Rao), a middle class college student. It is set in Delhi and also in the fictional town of Madhupur, located near Delhi in Uttar Pradesh.

*Just like Yaadein, this was kinda boring at first. Just a smooth relationship between the two couple. Hmmm, I must say I was tweeting about that this story might get rejected if it was wrote in PHR, LOL. Because of the conflict. I thought there will be no conflict. But the conflict of the story makes me love this movie. Well, who would like a guy that will still marry you even you have third degree burns and your marriage is just an arranged one? I love Prem to the highest level. HAHAHA!

8. Yaadein

Raj Singh Puri is best friends with L.K. Malhotra who is the younger brother of J.K. Malhotra. The brothers are business tycoons and Raj works in their company. Raj has 3 daughters. Isha the youngest fell for Ronit, LK Malhotra's son. Everything changes because of that.

* This movie was actually boring at first. But when I realized how the story flows, I kinda like it. I love how Ronit adopts Raj attitude even if they are not really in blood. Maybe because he grew up with him more than he was in his family. I love how Ronit loves Isha and how he was heartbroken when Isha shuns his relationship with Ronit. I want to replay those parts because I can really feel how its hard for Ronit. Hritik Roshan was really great in this movie, I must say. He pulls out all the emotions needed. 

7. Veer-Zaara

Set against the backdrop of conflict between India and Pakistan, this star-crossed romance follows the unfortunate love story of an Indian Air Forcepilot, Squadron Leader Veer Pratap Singh, and a Pakistani woman hailing from a rich political family of Lahore, Zaara Haayat Khan, who are separated for 22 years. Saamiya Siddiqui, a Pakistani lawyer, finds Veer in prison, and upon listening to his story, tries to get him freed.

*This movie was recommended to me by my "good friend". And this was I think the fourth bollywood movie I watch. It was very touching since I can really feel the love of Veer to Zaara. Well, with that 22 years in prison just to protect Zaara's grace and no one visits you? It was like.. wow! Just wow. What a great love you have for a girl you just spend a day with. Its a great and heart warming story.

6. Aitraaz

Successful businessman Raj Malhotra (Akshay Kumar) has everything going for him, including a lovely wife (Kareena Kapoor). Just when he thinks things can't get any better, Sonia (Priyanka Chopra) - his ex-girlfriend, now the boss's wife - walks back into his life - and she wants Raj.

*This is the first Priyanka Chopra movie I watch. And even if she have a negative character here, I really, really appreciate her performance! I first loved her here. The hero, I don't like him that much..so skip that part. LOL. Kareena Kapoor here, hmmmm.... I actually think the role fits on her. She really do good in this movie even if Priyanka, I think, more become the star. It was a romance thriller movie and because I love those kind of movies, please don't blame me for loving it. I love how Kareena managed to fight for her husband and how Priyanka acts as the irritating villain. That's all. :P

5. Rockstar!

It follows Janardhan Jakhar a.k.a. JJ and Jordan, who dreams of becoming a big rockstar. He undergoes an emotional change to do so and during the process, a love story follows with a girl named Heer, which takes him from India to Prague.

*My Ranbir Kapoor is a rockstar! Hahaha! I thought, at first, this is also a boring movie since I can't understand the first part. Plus the fact that the site I've watch, some of the subtitles lines are not available. But... the movie went interesting in the middle. Especially when Heer was diagnosed with Leukemia... I actually find JJ sweet on that part even if he was still rude! Hahaha! Its just too sad that this story is tragic because Heer died. But sometimes, I think I'm abnormal because I appreciate tragic romance love stories more on happy endings. Well, maybe because I always believe it happens in reality.

4. Ishaqzaade

The story of Ishaqzaade casually links with a popular love story Romeo and Juliet. Rising from the ashes of hooliganism and small town clan wars, comes the love story of a passion ignited by hatred. Two people. Born to hate. Destined to love.

*so okay! This movie was actually not in my original list. But since Im not yet finished with this post, I include this. All I can say is that I love Arjun Kapoor! hahaha! OMG, this was his debut movie and he really did great(for me because he got my heart. LOL) Noo,,, ahmm! he was really good. The way he acts, to do the sensual scenes, gosh, I really can feel it! Hahaha. Parineeti Chopra is really good, too. I kinda like her. She's beautiful, cute. Like that. And I love his character here. She is so strong. And the movie, over all, its really good. Its a tragic love story again but all I can say is I love it because it suprises me. And yes, it shows the reality of life. Well maybe not here, but in India, I can say. But somehow, this movie bothers me. HAHAHA!

3. Three Idiots

Two friends are searching for their long lost companion. They revisit their college days and recall the memories of their friend who inspired them to think differently, even as the rest of the world called them "idiots".

* This is the first ever bollywood film I watched. Every college student, especially engineering students, can relate to this movie. I've heard its the highest grossing film in India and I won't demand on that. It deserves it. The story is very inspiring and very entertaining to watch. Every time I am pressured in school, I watch this movie and I feel kinda well after. I just wish I have watch this before I entered college so that I will not be the Princess I am now. Hahahaha!

2. Barfi!

Set in 1970s, the film depicts the story of Murphy "Barfi" Johnson (a mute and deaf man from Darjeeling, West Bengal) and his relationship with two girls, Shruti and Jhilmil (who is autistic).

* I've heard about this movie a long time ago but I didn't try to watch this because I think its boring. Whenever I watch a movie, I want to have a "romance" genre in it. Here, I thought, there's nothing romantic because of the poster. Hahaha! And aside from that, I didn't even knew Ranbir Kapoor then. I thought he's not cute and like that. LOL. But when I watched Rockstar, I started to watched all his award-winning movies, too. And this one is his greatest! The movie is so heart-warming. I really love the POV line here of Shruti saying... "Barfi may be incomplete. But his love is complete." Its a lovestory between two unusual people. This is the first time I watched a movie like this but it really touched my heart. Plus Priyanka Chopra (my favorite Bollywood actress) really did great in this movie. I also love the message here...of Shruti again... (even if I don't like her, LOL) "It could have been me instead of Jhilmil. But it was Jhilmil who got Barfi. Because she didn't plan to fall in love. She didn't think about the consequences. She didn't think how life would turn out. She just loved him unconditionally. And it all turned out well in the end."... In the end, she look like a martyr villain. Hahaha! An unsuccessful one sided love :P

1. Ghajini

The film discussed about a rich business tycoon, Sanjay Singhania, (Aamir Khan) who develops anterograde amnesia following a violent encounter in which his love interest, model Kalpana, was killed. He tries to avenge the killing with the aid of Polaroid Instant camera photographs and permanent tattoos on his body.

* Third bollywood film I watched. I heard about this movie through my classmate and decided to watch it because they said it was a comedy film. That time, I need to make myself laugh because I can't moved on with the romance drama film I watched before that night. But I was wrong when I did it because its not a real comedy at all.  Hmmmm... Some scenes are but over all story is mostly thriller and action. It was boring at first and you'll think that maybe the story is bad because of the first scene Aamir's character. But when the "past" is discussed, its very entertaining and funny. The story was really great! All movie genre I want to see in a film was here, romance, drama, comedy, thriller and action. Yay! Its just too sad that in the end, Kalpana died without knowing that her boyfriend is the real Sanjay Singhania---the CEO of Airvoice mobile company.


xx

Cady

I'm practicing

So last night I was chatting with my "Good friend" on Gtalk. I was too happy that I tweeted about him chatting me because I missed him so much. Its been more than 2 weeks since we last talk. He mailed me last Sunday but because I feel so demanding, I think its not that enough. Hahaha!

Okay---I'm going to write on tagalog na.

Tuwang-tuwa ako nang i-chat niya ako kahapon. Sa totoo lang, masama nga ang loob ko sa kanya dahil na rin doon. I even tweeted, "Kinalimutan na niya ako" with a sad smiley face pa dahil na rin sa ilang araw naming hindi nagtsa-chat. Hindi na ako umaasang icha-chat niya ako last night kaya naman ang laki ng ngiti ko nang marinig ko `yung notif sounds na may nag-chat sa akin sa Gtalk. Dahil siya lang naman ang contact ko doon, alam na alam ko ng siya `yun.

Halos siya lang ang nagkuwento. Hinayaan ko siya since sabik ako sa kuwento niya. He is in a different world now because he is in a different city. Nakakatawa nga `yung una niyang chat sa akin. Para siyang nagrereport. Hehe! Tapos wala na siyang sinabi kundi about sa City na `yun. Ang gulo-gulo daw compared sa city kung saan siya nakatira dati. Sabi ko na lang sa kanya, bago ka pa lang diyan kaya siguro ganyan ang nararamdaman mo. Sanay kasi siya sa tahimik, kaya nanibago siya. Sa City siya nakatira pero dahil hindi naman ganoon ka-crowded `yung State nila compared sa state kung nasaan ang city na `yun. Pero sabi ko, masasanay rin siya. Ganoon naman talaga sa una. Kailangan niyang masanay para maka-survive. 3 months siya roon.

Then napunta na sa kung saan-saan ang usapan namin. Wala pa yata kaming 30 minutes na magka-chat kaya medyo na-disappoint talaga ako. I told that to him. I said I'm just being honest. Sabi niya... "Be patient. Be Tolerant."

At `yun talaga ang dahilan ng post ko. As in, naiiyak ako kagabi. Ang dami kong gustong sabihin sa kanya. Bakit ba kasi magkaiba kami? Bakit ba kasi hindi siya marunong mag-multitask? Hindi ba puwedeng kahit twice a week, mag-chat kami? Hindi ba puwedeng kahit sandali, i-mail niya man lang ako since nasa CITY nga siya at for sure naman ay maraming internet shop roon?

Haay. At ako naman si tanga, HINAYAAN na lang siya. Gusto kong magpaka-demanding pero may pumipigil sa akin. I'm a girl. I shouldn't do that. Pero shit talaga! Gustong-gusto kong bumalik sa dating kami. Para akong tanga na nagpapakamartir sa kanya! Naiinis na ako sa sarili ko. Palagi kong sinasabi, makakahanap ka rin ng ibang kagaya niya. I'm trying. Kunwari binabaling ko sa iba `yung pagka-miss ko sa kanya. Pero hindi ako makapagsinungaling sa sarili ko. Hinahanap ko siya. Hinahanap ko `yung "harhar" niya. Hinahanap ko `yung ngiti ko kapag ginagamit niya `yung sense of humour niya.

Ang tangi ko na lang sagot sa sinabi niyang be patient chenes... "I'm practicing".

But f*ck, mag-iisang taon na kaming ganito pero hindi pa rin ako nasasanay. T___T


xx

Cady

Making an extra-ordinary plot.

Okay. The title is so ambitious. Hehe! Maka-extra ordinary nga naman ako `no? But well, I this is an extra-ordinary story. Kasi hindi ko nga sure kung puwede talaga itong plot na ito. I've seen it in a movie and I felt like I need to do something like this. Because the story symbolizes my life right now! Chos!

Ehem. I'm serious na, okay? The story was somehow risky since it tackles about "suicide". I know it was discuss on our workshop that we should not put suicidal characters in the story. But errrr... I want to take risk. AGAIN. Because I want my readers to see again the "reality" of life. Ito kasi `yung nakikita ko sa ngayon, eh. At kahit naman may suicide-suicide chuva sa story na ito, may something akong gagawin dito. I think this would be an inspiring story since hindi naman matutuloy `yung suicide. May ganoong factor lang.

Hindi ko alam kung anong magiging tingin rito ng mga tao. But if ever na ma-approve ang story na ito, I would say sa first page ang true reason kung bakit ginawa ko ito. Hindi ko rin alam kung ako lang ang nakaka-feel nito...but yeah, creepy man sabihin, may mga times na naisip kong gawin rin "ito"! Hehe. Life is hard, actually. But I just thought about it. I wouldn't do it!!!! I always told myself that if ever I do it, my burden would just be passed on other people. And marami pa akong pangarap sa buhay `no....!!!

That's it. I just want to share this to some people who are taking the risk in reading some of my entries here.

And to those people who care. Pray again for me. For my sanity.

xx
Cady