PASSED!!!

Yes. Our group passed the defense! If you have read my last post, you would know how nervous I am.

We have revisions, but what is important is we passed. Yung grupo namin yung pinakamahabang oras nang pagde-defense at paghihintay ng deliberation. It was said to us that we are near to... re-defense. Even the chairperson told us that there are aspect that should be accounted to re defense. But they also put our effort in the grading.

Buti na lang talaga at si Sir Perez ang chairperson namin. Siya talaga `yung pinakakinakabahan ako. Pero yung dalawa pa palang panel yung gigisa sa amin. Grabe lang, never kong in-expect `yun since they have the reputation of... HAHAHAH!!! Oh well, just what I tweeted today, One thing I learned today is do not underestimate. I underestimate those two panels and they feel like the one who are asking a lot of questions! And our adviser, I really didn't expect that she would help us after what happened yesterday to the other group. Ah, naalala ko tuloy kanina noong nagsasalita si Sir Perez kanina sa amin kung bakit hindi niya kami nilaglag, sobrang na-overwhelm talaga ako. Kasi napaka-considerate niya. Kahit ilang beses na kaming umabsent sa kanya dahil nga sa paggawa ng FS na ito, inintindi niya kami. At hindi niya talaga kami pinabayaan. Tinatakot niya kami noong una pero nang ramdam niyang tameme na kami, tameme rin siya. What our problem is that na-block kami! Buti na lang talaga, na-gets noong professor namin yung gusto naming sabihin kasi hindi namin siya maipaliwanag. Ganoon-ganoon lang naman yung nangyari namin saka nagka-problem kami sa Market Study, about doon sa distribution process namin. Risky raw kasi.

But overall, the defense was okay. Nakakaba lang noong sobrang tagal nung pinag-antay namin sa deliberation pero nakahinga talaga ako nang maluwag nung ipapa-revise lang. Worth it ang pagbili ko ng bagong corpo! Charot. Hahahaha!

Thank you Sir Perez for being our "power ranger". Kahit in-underestimate rin kita noong una, still, you are very considerate! You know how to adjust. I never thought you would be this kind when I first saw you. Thank you Miss Leonor, for being our "taga-sambot" nang wala na kaming masabi. Hahaha! But most of all, thank you Lord God for granting our prayer :))) I love you Lord!!!

Next blog ko na lang yung about sa FS experience namin. HAHAHA!!!


xx

Cady

Guide Me

If there is a simple word that would best describe my last 2 weeks... Its a living hell. And unfortunately, its not yet the end.

Next week will be our FS defense days. Our group is scheduled to have it on Thursday. And I am freaking nervous! Even if we got the kindest (they say) set of panel, still, I can't help but to be pressured. Especially that days are coming and coming. I know I am not the only one in this. But still....

This FS defense feels like our ticket for graduation. Next sem would be our internship. And yes, I am already cleared my medical exam so I am sure that I will be going to have it in Toyota Sta. Rosa. Problem solved with that. Only this defense.

I try so hard to let this pressure out. Today, I totally have myself a day off. But this Sunday seems so boring... I am so lazy I am only in my room the whole day. I watch movies, sleep and read. But it still doesn't release the pressure away. And I feel like it just gets worse. The last movie I watch just intensified this pressure because of the "failure" that happened to the hero. Oh God, I really imagine myself being in his shoes that time. What if questions comes to my mind that I nearly shut off the laptop. Even if it has a good ending, it still affects me a lot.

I still have some doubts with our paper though. But we have something to defend on that if the panel asked about that kind of problem. Still, I am not satisfied. What if the panel didn't accept our answer to that? The head of our set of panels is intelligent. He had a lot of questions but he was kind. I know that since he was my professor in 4 subjects this sem. See? 4 SUBJECTS AND THAT'S ALL ACCOUNTING SUBJECT! He was also a CPA, MBA and do have a doctor degree! Even if we knew him and we have high hopes that he will never failed us since he knew the hardships we faced through this... STILL...

Uggghhh! Please God. Give me peace of mind. I can't sleep well,  I can't eat well. Most of the times I would just woke up and think of the FS. I even have nightmares! Help me God. Guide me.

xx

Cady