Big Month

Ilang araw na lang October na. And I am really nervous for this month. Ito `yung month na magkakaalamanan na kung ga-graduate ba ako o hindi. Its our defense day month! At sino ba ang hindi matatakot na mag-defense?

Our defense day should be on October 9. But due to the suspension of classes last August, our school days were extended. We are going to have the defense on October 16 and 17. Two freaking days! Our class were in panic. Alam namin na lahat kami ay nasa bingit since---ayaw ko ng i-explain kung bakit.

Pero hindi lang ito ang dahilan kung bakit kinakabahan ako. Most of my upcoming books is expected to be released this month---and that includes my trilogy. Ahhhh, it has been almost a year since I wrote the first book. I like that book since bet ko talaga gumawa ng ganoong klase ng story. Pero natatakot pa rin ako dahil alam kong hindi ko na-build up masyado yung iba kong characters sa book 1. Isa-isa pa naman ang release ngayon ng mga trilogy/series. Isama pang... kinakabahan talaga ako sa magiging reaction ng readers dito.

My heroes were not perfect, pati na rin ang kanilang mga heroine. My God, dito nga pala ako mas kinakabahan. Lalo na doon sa book 2 and 3. May something kasi sa mga characters nila na well, di masyadong maganda. Yay! But I hope, they would give a chance of buying it, or if any chance, liking or loving it! Ah, plus the cover---I made that myself. Kaya nakakaba lalo na at hindi naman ako magaling sa mga ganyan. Gusto ko lang talaga mapalagay ung name ko sa cover concept. Mehehe!

And oh, its also finals week this month. But I'm not bothered by that. Yung defense lang talaga saka ung pag-release ng books ko. Wew!

At isama na rin natin pala yung result ng pending manuscript ko. Mehehe!


xx

Cady

Emotions.

And yeah, I am trying to write a manuscript now. Ito `yung manuscript na matagal ko nang gustong isulat simula nang dumating ako sa point na `yun.

Bihira kong sabihin kapag may personal akong problema. I mean, the more drama side problem. `Yung nakakaawa `yung magiging turing sa akin ng tao pagkatapos. I don't like pity from others. I don't like self-pitying, too. Siguro ay minsan ganoon ako... pero `yung mga nakikita niyong `yun, wala pa `yun sa nangyayari sa akin sa loob ng kwarto. Kapag mag-isa ako.

I have a lot of posts here na hindi ko pina-publish. And most of them are the posts that contains the drama side of me. Gustong-gusto kong ilabas pero ayaw ko ng negative vibes. Ayaw ko rin na oras na malaman `yun nang tao, maawa sila sa akin.

There was this week na sobrang emotional ko. `Yun `yung week na nabuo ko ang plot ng manuscript na ito. Matagal na `yun, actually. Wala na rin ako sa stage na `yun. Siguro naka-moved on na ako. And things are getting better now kaya hindi ko siguro ganoon maramdaman. But still, I want to write a novel out of those feelings. Out of those experience.

`Yung iba, feeling ko normal naman. Nasabi ko na actually kay Riyan itong bagay na ito and feeling ko, iba `yung verdict niya sa nararamdaman ko. Feeling ko, hindi niya ako naiintindihan. Feeling ko rin kasi, abnormal `yung nararamdaman ko na `yun. Kahit `yung Mommy ko, noong time na sinabi ko `yun sa kanya... sinabihan niya ako nang "para kang tanga,". But I can't help it... I don't want to be at that point in time na...

Hindi ko sasabihin kung ano talaga `yung nangyari. Pero clue: Ayaw kong mangyari ang lahat ng ito dahil wala pa akong boyfriend. Wala pa akong someone to hold on to.

Ayan!!! Mukha ba akong desperada? But really, ito `yung nararamdaman ko on that time. Marami akong friends but still, its not enough. I can't demand with my friends... because I am only their friend. Haay! Mahirap i-explain. Pero over all, if ever man na matapos at maipasa ko ang manuscript na ito.... Ito ang pagbabatayan ko kung normal ba itong nararamdaman ko. Kapag returned, hindi. Kapag revision at ang problem na `yun ang pin-point, hindi rin. Kapag approved agad, edi normal talaga! Hahaha!

Medyo nabo-bore nga lang ako sa takbo ng story. Oh well, di kasi ako sanay sa ganitong klaseng nobela. Hindi kasi sila nag-aaway! XD


xx

Cady

The thing about supernaturals...

I was thinking of writing about this post yesterday while reading Unearthly by Cynthia Hand. This book is in my shelf for more than three months now and I just have the thought of holding it again (yes, because I didn't even bother to tear the plastic cover of it and just place it somewhere in my room after buying it) yesterday. I love angels and I want to learn more about it because I do want to finish an angel story. But because of the one I wrote (yes, I tried to write one, but I didn't pass nor finish it) that seems of lacking something. I think its more on the angel things/bla'blas, I stopped even if I'm nearly done. So I said to myself, I don't want to read anymore. Joke! Hahaha. Its just that aside from being busy, I lost the will of reading angel stories because I don't think I can write one. Chos!

But then, I told myself, its been months and I reread the reviews again in Goodreads. I bought that book because of the reviews. And because there were no classes on Monday and Tuesday, that means, I will have a long vacation. I started it yesterday and whoa! I can't believe I will instantly like the book. Its just interesting and not boring unlike some of the Angel books I've read. Less on narration, more on dialogues! I love books like that. I love reading the dialogues because well, I think narrations are boring! And of course, the story is more  interesting than others because its different.

Anyway, I want to end talking about Unearthly. Its just a part of my main topic because its all about supernatural stuff. Angels, Vampires, Witches, Demigods and all that. I will admit, I'm not more on english books because aside from the fact that english books makes my pocket cry, sometimes, i found some of them boring to read. Its just too long and more parts are---I think, unnecessary. So if I buy an english book, I mostly buy romance with fantasies stuff because I love romance and I think things about fantasies are cool!

So sometimes, I feel like I want to be a supernatural, too. Like the angels, they have wings. White and big and looks so powerful. Vampires---who looks so hot even if they bite! Hahaha. Witches---who do potions and Demigods that even they have some abnormalities like having dyslexia, they are still the son of a God in Olympus and they have powers like for the son of poseidon---water, Athena for wisdom and so on.

One time, a man tweeted me on twitter about the book the lost hero. We talked about it there and he said something about it, like he feels like he was a demigod because he is experiencing some of the things that demigods are experiencing. Hahaha. I was like rolling my eyes that time. Its just fiction and something like... Oh well! But anyway, when we read, sometimes we love to have it on real life. Like we are thinking we have that angels, witches, vampires and the places they have been. Honestly, I want to have a real camp half blood here in the Philippines. Yes, real, as in there are also demigods and I belong to that, too!!! Nyahahaha. And I feel like the person I said a while ago! Hahahaha. So dreamy! And also, one time, (please, don't tell me that I'm crazy for thinking like this---hahahaha!) I thought of me being a vampire because whenever I rub a little in my neck, it always turns red. So when my classmates notice about me having a red neck, I will answer, because I'm a vampire!. (Just for fun, Hahaha)

I admit I have a wild imagination. Thoughts are like a running river in my mind. It never stops. I always think of something whenever I see something fun and something interesting. So don't be shock that I wrote this post and tell some weird things about me. When I'm reading, I feel like I'm there. One of the characters there and living and existing in that kind of place. But after it, I will thought that supernatural beings are just fiction. Not reality. So even if its hard, I will get over it. Its just a dream that I should need to be awake.

Azec Chase ♥