2017 Writing Goals

"What keeps me going is goals" - Muhammad Ali.

I felt lost last year and I think it's because of my lack of goals. Or maybe, dahil hindi ko kasi itinuloy ang plan ko last year. Sometimes I regret it but meeting my colleagues again last week, I decided na there is nothing to regret. I love what I am doing and I enjoy it.

So this year, magiging strong na talaga ako. Gagawin ko na ulit kung ano ang gusto ko at alam ko na makakapagpasaya sa akin---writing!

I will keep on going so here are my writing goals/to write books. Ha-ha!

If Only Series

This is a collaboration series na nabuo last 2016 brainstorming in Baguio. I did it na actually pero may problema so kailangan ko na umulit. But it's okay. I think I have a better plot and idea this time. Sana ganoon rin ang feeling ng evaluator ko. LOL

International Playboys Series

A series w/c I started last year. And hey, its not related to my International Billionaires Series. One book pa lang ang approved rito at ewan, ang hirap sundan. LOL. But this is a series that I started because of the TV show Jane The Virgin. Ha-ha!

International Billionaires Wannabes Series

O ayan, related talaga `yan sa International Billionaires. Mga anak ng Bilyonaryo ko ang bida at ang mga partner nila ay... secret! Yay! Approved na ang book 1 and 2... Sana next week, approved rin ang 3 :P

The Descendants Series

Another International Billionaires related series.... Ha-ha!

The Cavaliers/Philippine Aristocrats

A series that I conceptualized because of my addiction on Le Bal Debutantes. Hopefully, maggawa ko talaga siya. ^_^

To Infinitea And Beyond Series

Sana man lang, kahit isa ay may maipasa ako ulit. 3 books approved pa lang ito at last year pa!

Red Room

(Uy, may nag-aabang? Ha-ha!)

Abilene's Story... SANA, SANA, SANA
Beast - SANA, SANA, SANA rin.

And most of all.... TO BE ONE OF THE MOST PROLIFIC WRITER again. Ayan talaga ang pinaka-goal ko ngayong year kaya ang dami kong series. LOL. Pero sana sana sana sana talaga maggawa ko silang lahat. Layuan nawa sana ako ng katamaran.

So 2017, please be good to me.

xx

Cady

Dear Lord...

Dear Lord...

You have given a lot to me. Intelligence, skills and opportunities. Yet, I keep on wasting them.

I wish for them, yet I wasted them.

I'm sorry, Lord God.

I made bad decisions, I know. But what to do now? Just regret.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

I will learn from this, yes. I will take everything that is happening to me as a challenge.

But Lord, let me ask you for something...

PLEASE DON'T GIVE UP ON ME.

xx

Cady

2014 Highlights

Simula nang gawin ko ang blog na ito, I always make sure na mayroon akong blog post before the year ends. Madalas pag-reminisce ng mga nangyari the whole year o `di kaya ay ang mga plano ko for next year. Palagi ako by months nag-re-reminisce pero dahil tinatamad na ako mag-reminisce by months... gawin na lang nating facebook. Wala ng all stories---just highlights!

Birthday
(January 5, 2014)

I don't think there's something special in here....bukod sa tumanda lang ako. LOL. Kidding! What I did on the start of my 20th year of existence? Dahil Sunday... I made sure I went to church. Then kaunting luto-luto at nagpunta kami sa Alabang to visit my Dad's cemetery with family. Went to visit Dad's family side, too. At kumain sa Tokyo-Tokyo (my fave restaurant). Nothing special right? Haha! But I include this on the highlights since its my birthday! :P



 Balai Isabel Brainstorming
(January 24 - 25, 2014)

 My 2nd brainstorming na in-attend-an ko sa PHR. Nakakulta ng utak `yung sa Bataan but this one, mas lalong nakulta ang utak ko. It seems like a bad memory, Muntik na akong sumuko. Charot. Na-pressure ako nang husto dito kaya ayaw ko na sana mag-details pa. But it was fun though....because after months, I met my writer friends again.


Mom's Almost A Week Hospital Confinement
(January 25 - 30, 2014)
Bad memory again. But highlights nga ito, okay? Bad and good, I still include. I have to leave the brainstorming early cause of this news. It was a very bad day for me. Na-confine si Mommy just because sa ingrown nail. WTF right? But this made me nervous a lot, too. Dito ako na-broke nang husto dahil sa laki ng bill na binayaran namin sa hospital.

OB Trip to BIR and PHR anniversary Sale
(February 4, 2014)
Good memory! First time ko lumabas sa office sa aking OJT at first time ko rin sa BIR. For more details, please visit my blogpost OJT Update

End of OJT in Toyota Motor Philippines
(March 22, 2014)

Completed my 670 hours of training in Toyota Motor Philippines. It was bitter sweet. Masaya ako na natapos ko siya at siyempre, mami-miss ko rin ang mga tao sa paligid ko. My superiors. They were really very nice to me at nakakatuwa lang na hanggang ngayon, kinakausap pa rin nila ako. And yay! They even gave me gifts that I didn't expect to have. All my service was worth it. Chos!

Signed Feasibility Papers
(April 22, 2014)

And we are done...on the hardest book ever! Halos magsisigaw yata ako noon nang matapos na namin papirmahan ang FS papers namin. We have a lot of troubled encounter in making this one. Ang matapos ang FS ay isang malaking achievement na sa akin/amin. :P








College Graduation
(April 24, 2014)

MY. MOST. AWAITED. DAY.
After so many years of studying, I finally walked in the stage to get my last diploma. May degree na rin ako sa wakas. Hindi ko pa rin makalimutan ang napakasayang feeling ng sa wakas ay makuha ko na ang diploma ko (kahit ang pangit ko sa aking grad pic, I mean---the eyes only) at lalong-lalo na ang itapon ko ang cap. Pakiramdam ko, nanalo ako ng lotto. Nakakaiyak---masaya na malungkot. Masaya dahil natapos ko na rin ang college at nakakalungkot dahil hindi na ako estudyante. Mahal na pamasahe sa jeep at bus. Nyek. Haha!

Contract Signing
(June 21, 2014)
One of my dreams is to be an exclusive writer of PHR. I made it.

Once A Princess Premiere
(August 6, 2014)

Star studded! First PHR book to turned into a movie. Invited ang mga writers at nasa premiere pa kami. With the artist. Isinama ko si Mommy dahil may libre tickets. Alam ko, nag-enjoy nang husto ang Mommy. Hindi inubo, eh. Nag-enjoy rin naman ako. Lalo na sa pakiramdam na katabi mo lang ang mga artista! Yay! I got to meet a lot of Filipino actors and actresses. And most especially, Miss Gretchen Barretto. I am really stunned to see her in person. Mangiyak-ngiyak ako noon kasi gustong-gusto ko siya. Stalker kasi ako sa IG :P And got to see one of my Filipino actor crush, JC de Vera. Di lang nakapagpa-picture. Sayang :P

CSC Passer
For more details: CSC Passer

Christmas
(December 25, 2014 and onwards)

Time to give back because I have so many blessings this year. Gift giving. Lahat yata ng family ko, binigyan ko ng gift. Went to Church, too. Na-complete ko rin pala ang Simbang Gabi. Together with my Mom. Great day!

I also have a year end/christmas party with my college friends. What to expect? Always a blast when I am with them! xx



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Indeed, 2014 is a great year for me. Puwede ko siya na mai-categorize na best year so far for me. Unlike, 2013---I can't say I just survived the year. This year, I can say that I don't just survived. I ENJOYED this year so much! Why? Bukod sa good memories, I also did what I really want in my life since I was young---TO BE A WRITER---and not just a writer. A FULL TIME WRITER. I also happened to triple the number of manuscripts I have last year. Maaaring pagsisihan ko man sa huli ang decisions na ginawa ko this year, pero magagawa ko ba talaga na pagsisihan? Masaya ako sa ginagawa ko. Hindi dapat pinagsisihan ang mga ganitong bagay.

Thank you 2014. Cheers and welcome 2015. Be better than my this year, pretty please?

xx
Cady

Mature...

I'm back! Chos. This is a writing post anyway. Okay---correct that, writing rant.
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Hanggang ngayon, ayaw ko pa magtrabaho. Ayaw ko kasi mawala ang focus ko sa pagsusulat. Not yet. Not now. I am still enjoying at pakiramdam ko kapag nagtrabaho ako ngayon, mawawala na ako sa mundo ng pagsusulat just like what happened when I have my training in Toyota. Totally, wala talaga ako naisulat sa buong OJT days ko so I feel that when I work full time now using my degree, hindi ko na magagawang magsulat muli.

Wala pa naman akong problem sa ngayon. Actually, nakakatuwa nga dahil feeling ko every week ako nakakapagsulat ng bagong MS. Kung tutuusin, kung `di lang talaga matagal ang suweldo, mas malaki ang kinikita ko sa mga friends ko na ngayon ay nagwowork na. And the fact that I also love what I am doing. Nasa bahay lang ako. Natutulungan ko pa ang Mommy ko. I have my own work time, I have my own rules.

Pero `di ko maiwasang punahin naman ang sinusulat ko ngayon. Dahil ba sa graduate na ako kaya nagiging ganito ang takbo ng utak ko? Dahil napapabasa na rin ako ng ero? O sadya lang talagang ngayon ko lang na-discover ang malaswa kong pag-iisip? He-he. Feeling ko lang naman, nagma-mature na ako. If you have read my last posts... I do bed scenes na. At itong ginagawa ko ngayon `di naman talaga siya ganito ka ano... you know.. hehe. Pero napapadami ang seduction parts.

I think that I am getting out of my comfort zone. Lumalabas na ako sa mundo ng playboy. Nasa era na ako ng mga aroganteng hero. Yeah, kind of arrogant ang mga lalaki ko sa bago kong trilogy. At pati na rin sa bago kong MS na sinusulat ngayon. At sa sobrang pagka-arogante niya, pakiramdam ko, ang bigat bigat na ng dibdib ko. Bukod kasi sa pagiging arogante ay galit rin siya. Ang hirap pala palambutin ng puso ng ganito. Ahehe.

Anyway, sa ngayon ay ito pa lang naman ang masasabi kong problema. Plus nahihilig rin ako sa medyo drama kaya siguro ganito ang nararamdaman ko. Try ko nga magsulat ng light stories muli next time. Iyong tipong rom com rin. Nami-miss ko na ang ganoong tinig ni Cady... Hehe. Sana soon. After my another translation siguro.

PS: And please pray for that, too? He-he. Kaya siguro naging ganito ang MS ko ngayon dahil sa trinanslate ko na yun.


xx

Cady

Moving on...

2013 bye... 2014, hi.

We are moving on... I just have few wishes for this year and that is...

To graduate --- It feels sad to leave school yet, I want it to end, too. Last year had been a struggle.. my subjects, feasibs and all about school stuffs! So I hope, my internship now would end good and this April... I'll finally March on the stage and get my diploma.

Healthy family --- This is a wish more for my Mom. She seems getting weaker and weaker each year. I hope this year, she wouldn't be like that... I hope she'd be more happy and healthy.

More manuscripts --- as I've said to my last posts.... I'm having a dilemma. I hope this year, I wouldn't experience that.

And yes.. LOVELIFE --- I'm longing for it. Hahaha! Besides, I expect to graduate this year and ehem... HIM, we are the same right? Hahaha!

Thank you 2013. More blessings 2014.

Happy Happy New Year!

xx

Cady

Guide Me

If there is a simple word that would best describe my last 2 weeks... Its a living hell. And unfortunately, its not yet the end.

Next week will be our FS defense days. Our group is scheduled to have it on Thursday. And I am freaking nervous! Even if we got the kindest (they say) set of panel, still, I can't help but to be pressured. Especially that days are coming and coming. I know I am not the only one in this. But still....

This FS defense feels like our ticket for graduation. Next sem would be our internship. And yes, I am already cleared my medical exam so I am sure that I will be going to have it in Toyota Sta. Rosa. Problem solved with that. Only this defense.

I try so hard to let this pressure out. Today, I totally have myself a day off. But this Sunday seems so boring... I am so lazy I am only in my room the whole day. I watch movies, sleep and read. But it still doesn't release the pressure away. And I feel like it just gets worse. The last movie I watch just intensified this pressure because of the "failure" that happened to the hero. Oh God, I really imagine myself being in his shoes that time. What if questions comes to my mind that I nearly shut off the laptop. Even if it has a good ending, it still affects me a lot.

I still have some doubts with our paper though. But we have something to defend on that if the panel asked about that kind of problem. Still, I am not satisfied. What if the panel didn't accept our answer to that? The head of our set of panels is intelligent. He had a lot of questions but he was kind. I know that since he was my professor in 4 subjects this sem. See? 4 SUBJECTS AND THAT'S ALL ACCOUNTING SUBJECT! He was also a CPA, MBA and do have a doctor degree! Even if we knew him and we have high hopes that he will never failed us since he knew the hardships we faced through this... STILL...

Uggghhh! Please God. Give me peace of mind. I can't sleep well,  I can't eat well. Most of the times I would just woke up and think of the FS. I even have nightmares! Help me God. Guide me.

xx

Cady

I will miss you, Tatay...

Ayaw kong mag-blog nang mahaba dahil feeling ko, iiyak ako. Hindi man kami close ng Lolo ko... I know I would missed him. Heck, kapag naghuhugas ako ng plato, siya lagi ang naalala ko. Bakit? Siya lang naman kasi ang taong nagturo sa akin kung paano magtipid ng tubig.

Naalala ko yung mga araw kung kailan kailangan ko pang lumingon sa paligid habang naghuhugas ng plato. Kasi minsan, tinatamad akong gumamit ng batsa para maghugas nang madami. So I just use the faucet. Eh alam ko, patakaran mo na `wag ganoon. Natatakot ako na baka magalit ka kapag ginawa ko yun kaya kailangan ko pang i-secure kung nandoon ka ba sa paligid...

Ngayon, wala ng mangangaral sa akin sa tamang paggamit ng tubig kasi wala ka na. Hindi na ako matatakot pero siyempre, mami-miss kita. Feeling ko, kalakip na ng buhay ko yung pangangaral mo. Hehe. I know wala akong masyadong naggawa sa inyo, pero kayo marami. Kung `di dahil sa inyo, wala akong Mommy. At kung hindi niyo siya pinalaki ng mabuti, malamang ay baka kami ay napariwa rin... Kaya thank you po talaga. I'm so sorry rin kasi `di ko na naggawa yung promise ko sa inyo ng Inay na kapag nag-50th anniversary kayo, ako ang gagastos para sa lahat ng `yun... :(((

Wala man tayong gaanong moments, Tatay, pero deep inside my heart, I care for you.
Mami-miss po kita, Tatay... Mami-miss ko yung mga moments na ikaw ung kaagaw ko sa videoke. Na paulit-ulit mong kinakanta `yung El Mundo para sa pamilya natin... Yung paint my love...

Sana po ay maging masaya kayo diyan kasama nina Daddy at Tita Emily... Webcam kayo, ha? May facebook naman kayo at natuto pang maglaro ng tablet... Hehehe! I love you, Tatay. I will miss you.

xx

Cady

Believing...

I hate arguing about religion. I'm a Catholic and I also went to a Catholic school when I was in elementary and highschool. But I am not that religious person. I am not always present in church and I don't pray the rosary that much. I prayed everyday---before I sleep and every morning after I woke up, but still, I can't categorize myself as a religious person. But I believe in God. Everytime I hear mass, I will make sure I will hear and understand the homily---especially when the priest is so good and I know I will gain knowledge with what he was saying.

Today, we both talked about religion. HIM is an Atheist---he doesnt believe in God. He has no God. I remember one time then he was asking me to explain my side about religion. I feel like I am defenseless because he had said things that kinda confused my mind. Hahaha! But still, I believe. And today, I was kinda encouraging him to believe in God.... I want him to. I even told him that when the time comes that he will believe, even Hindu God's...that would be my happiest day.

But he just said... "May your belief save you,"

I was kinda disappointed. I know it would take time but I am not losing hope. Maybe not now... but in the future... I hope someday he will realize.

And why am I telling these things? Why I want him to believe in God, too?

Because I want to be Shamcey Supsup. "And if that person truly loves me, [he] should love my God too."

Charot! Akala mo naman boyfriend ko. HAHAHA!

xx

Cady

I want to write.

I want to write...but there is so many hindrances by now... Studying feels like a very big responsibility right now... I want to graduate on time....but I also want to do this. But I know, with this little time and this pressure rising up, I can't.

The hobby can wait. But this sem can't. The hope of people around me, (most especially for my family) can't wait. I need to be better... I need to put first what is really important for a student like me... I need to graduate... I need to face my responsibility as a teenager and as a child.

I just hope we'll have a better schedule so I can have time. And I won't be bother that much.

Please Lord. Just my revision and this manuscript I am really itching to write since last week....

Time. Knowledge. Strength. I need you.

xx

Cady

Dear Lord

Dear Lord...


I'm not hoping for a higher grade than my midterm grade... I'm very much contented with that grade. Even if it is line of 7... still that grade is a passing grade. I'm not hoping for more. Kahit tres o kagaya ng midterm grade ko na 2.75, okay na okay na ako, Lord. At sana po, pati `yung mga kaklase ko ay damayan niyo rin po. Please, marami po sa amin ang kilay na lang ang nakakapit at ang iba ay lumaglag na.... Please Lord, gabayan niyo po ang section namin. Sana po ay makapasa kaming lahat sa Advanced Accounting. Kahit hindi na with flying colors ang grade ko dahil tanggap ko na... na hindi na talaga. Pumasa lang talaga. Ayaw ko pong magrepeat. Please give me blessings. Pumasa lang po talaga... Maraming salamat po Lord God.


xx

Princess Joy D. Palo
Student
BSBA 3-1


Dear Lord....


Sana pumasa po ang story ni James. Kahit po for revision lang. Please, please, please. Mahal na mahal ko po siya... Wag naman po siyang ma-returned. Hindi ko po yata kakayanin. Chos! *deep sigh* Maraming salamat po Lord God.


xx

Cady Lorenzana
Frustrated Writer