OJT Update...

Hello! I am back! Hehe! Have you notice? Minsan na lang ako magblog? At kung magpo-post man ako, maikli lang? Kung may nagbabasa man ng mga posts ko, napansin siguro! Ahehe! Anyway, I'm still busy with my OJT in Toyota Motor Philippines. I still have 200+ hours to beat before I finish and according to my counting, it will lasts until the last week of March.

My training is still doing fine. The past few weeks, I've been busy. They gave me a lot of works but I have also some absences! He-he! Well, may mga bagay talaga na kailangan namang bigyan ng pansin. And I am not complaining for the works. I actually love it when they give me work. It means that they trust me and also for experience. And last Tuesday, they gave me one wonderful experience! Haha!

I don't know if most people would classify it as a wonderful one but being out of the office was really a big thing for me. Sa totoo lang, medyo na-disappoint talaga ako noon na sa Accounting department ako napunta. I am targeting the Marketing one because I know I would expose to a lot of trips! Me-he-he! And well, mas gusto ko talaga yun kaysa sa major ko. But well, I have no choice but to love it. And good thing, they made me experience something that I dream of. (dream talaga? Hehe!)

Me being out of the office is a surprise. May ginagawa ako ng oras na yun pero hindi naman rush. Nasa isip-isip ko pa noon na babagalan ko yung ginagawa ko since yun na lang naman ang gagawin ko at malamang na mate-tengga na ako. It was 2 in the afternoon that time. Still many hours to go before our office hours end. Medyo excited pa ako dahil pupunta akong SM after dahil sale ng Precious Pages. Bigla akong inutusan ng Sir ko na kuhanin yung BIR form 2307 ng isang supplier. It was my job actually. Kaya lang sandali lang yun at ibaba mo lang naman yung form at ipapa-receive. I was looking for the other quarters of the company in the box where the form was in when suddenly, my trainer came to me. Sobrang panic yung mukha niya at sinabi sa akin na, "Pupunta kang BIR," Na-stun talaga ako sa kanya. Hindi niya ako inuutusan. Bihirang-bihira lang. Yung mga under niya lang ang madalas na nagtuturo sa akin. (Manager kasi yung trainer ko) I was like... "Po? Ok po," She was like... "Ngayon na!"

Nagulat talaga ako. Natatawa na nga ako na di malaman kasi panic na panic na talaga siya. Nag-panic tuloy ako sa pagkuha ng form sa box. Then sinabi niya sa akin na bitawan ko na daw yun at ibigay sa nagpapagawa! Hahaha! That time, itinakbo na nila yung special arrangement business trip ko sa GAD para papirmahan. Ni hindi ko pa naayos ang gamit ko, tapos na sila sa pagpapirma! And di na rin ako binigyan na patayin yung computer ko. Hahaha! Medyo OA di ba? pero ganyan talaga yung nangyari. Paano kasi ay 2pm na. At past 2pm na rin ako nakalabas ng Toyota dahil wala pa yung driver ko pagpunta ko sa lobby! Yun pala ay nainip na siya dahil wala pa raw ako eh ang tagal na daw niyang nandoon. Hehe!

And yes, I have a driver. And our car is Toyota Yaris. And I mean, that is Toyota's driver. And Toyota's car. Hehe! Medyo nanghinayang lang ako kasi gusto ko sana Camry. Charot! Hahaha! But nevertheless, feeling ko ang donya ko kasi may driver ako! Hahaha! O dba? And I am also lucky dahil sa company namin, di nag-o-OB na pinagbabiyahe lang. May sarili ka talagang car at driver. Hehe! Kaya lang, medyo nakakalungkot na alone ka lang di ba? Chika-chika tuloy kami ni driver. Kahit medyo naligaw kami kasi di pala niya alam kung saan ang BIR. Hehe! Di daw siya familiar.

Pagdating ko sa BIR, (na first time ko nakarating) tanong na lang ako nang tanong. Kaya lang, nakakaasar yung mga pinagtanungan ko. Aba niligaw ako! Sandali lang naman ako doon kasi nagpa-receive lang ako at nag-deliver ng document. Pero past 4 na ako nakaalis at sakto lang sa labasan ng Toyota ang aking pagdating kaya nagpahatid na ako sa Turbina. (na napaaga ako) Hehe!

May pagkamababaw pero happiest office day ever ko yun. Haha! It was a nice experience. And my classmates are feeling envy of me. Ako lang kasi ang nakalabas ng ganoon kalayo eh. And errr.. I also take pictures nga pala. Kaya lang ang papangit kasi ako lang talaga mag-isa. Nagpakuha pa nga ako sa guard para lang documentation. `Yung driver ko kasi ay nasa parking lang at sinabihan niya lang ako na i-text siya kapag tapos na ako at susunduin ulit niya ako sa lobby. Hehe!

Here are some of the pictures:

And just that... Ang pinakapost taalga nito ay about sa experience na ito. Hehe! And well, I'm not saying na dahil dito ay talagang magandang-maganda na ang OJT experience ko. There were times na malungkot ako. And well, may one time pa nga na umiyak ako. (But not in the office talaga, ha?) I was just so tired that time and I have known something that kinda disappoints me. Bakit kasi na-timing sa araw na yun? Ang nakakatawa pa... after that day, tinanong ako ng Sir ko. "Kailan ka last na umiyak?" Hindi ko masagot kasi kapag sinagot ko, feeling ko, mahahalata niya. Hahahaha! Kaasar talaga yung tanong na yun, eh. But well,  naiintindihan ko naman kung bakit. And it was actually for good. Nag-timing lang talaga siya sa pagod ko.

But what I should say is that, Toyota is a very good company. Noong una, nagdoubt pa ako sa company na ito dahil sa feedbacks but when days passed, I have seen how it became one of the biggest company in the Philippines. Number 10 in the whole world. And the number ONE automotive company in the whole world. It was a good training ground. I am proud I am having my training here :)

xx

Cady

Reasons Why You Shouldn't Be Demanding To HIM

Reasons Why You Shouldn't Be Demanding To HIM

1. You are not his girlfriend.

2. Even though he was busy, still, he makes time for you. (Even if its just a few minutes of talk)

3. He always has a good reason when he cannot talk to you.

4. Sometimes he doesn't talk to you because he knew you are busy. He just left you for your own convenience. When you are busy, he won’t nag at you or demand to you like you always did to him. He wants you to do what you need to do.

5. On important occasions, he is always there for you. Every holiday, he will greet you. And do you remember every time your birthday comes? He will really try to catch you. On your first birthday with him, he have a city work and just to greet and talk to you, he left his work for a break and went to a computer shop to go online and talk to you even if it’s just a few minutes. Your last birthday, even if he is not sure that you will come online because you have class, he waited for you and even try to talk to you for a while.

6. He gave you a gift even if you don’t give him one in return.

7. He always tries to grant your request, even though he would spend a lot of money for it.

8. He always supports you on what you want and doesn’t even try to make you down like what most people always do to you. Remember when you failed on that exam and you are afraid of what he would say because the day before that exam, you were talking to him and telling him that you were lazy and do the things you weren’t supposed to do? You are afraid that he might get mad to you because of the result. Still, he doesn’t get mad at you. Instead, he said you can do better next time.

9. He doesn’t just care for you; he cares for your family, too. He asks how is your mom and your brother and even advices/give you treatment for them when they are sick.

10. When he was away, like when he is in Mumbai and doesn’t even have his PC and connection to mail you and have a whole week of work, he would come every rest day of him on a PC shop just to see and talk to you. And don’t forget the time that you were expecting him and he didn’t come at that time? He still went on the day on a computer shop and even if its already late, still, he told you his reasons and ask you to be with him the next day.

And return to reason number 1... 100 times until you get it.

xx

Cady

Just as I thought.

How much is the chance that two different person would be together? Like living in a world with a "happy ever after?"

I thought because I've become a writer, I adopt those some common personality of them to be cynical in love. I thought that being in love is just for fools and so on... I thought I lost it all after all those heartbreaks I have in the past... But no... I still believe in love.

How many times did I put those words in my novels about fairy tales doesn't exist in the real world? I thought I am mature enough to stop believing in those freaking stories. But heck, I still believe in it. I still believe in an unrealistic story... Because I am a fool to believe that there can be a chance on us... Even if we live in different worlds, I am a fool of believing that we could end up being together. I even imagine how it would be like.... How would a future be with you even if I am feeling how complicated it would be. On what hardships can we experience just to fight for all of it. Just like your parents did?

But no... Maybe there is really a fairy tale that comes with a happy never after ending. Or maybe because this is really not a fairy tale. My name is a princess but my personality is far away from that. And you're a frog...not the guy in a knight in shining armor...

I should stop thinking of you. I should stop thinking of that future. Because it would be just a world full of complications... I should stop telling all of this.

I should stop being with you...I should stop loving you.

If its just too easy to be done.

xx

Cady saying thank you for her bestfriend, for waking her up....

Madaling sabihin. Mahirap gawin.

For two weeks, I'm actually having a problem. Dapat matagal ko na itong iba-blogpost dahil ang tagal na rin nito sa dibdib ko. But I want to avoid putting my negative feelings in my blog. Lalo na `yung naisip ko last time na iba-blog post ko. If I did that, kung may makakabasa man, alam kong maawa sila sa lagay ko. I don't want that to happen. I don't want pity on others. Pero dahil medyo um-okay ang mga sitwasyon, `di na kasama dito ang isa pang nararamdaman ko. All about this blogpost would be just for...HIM.

May mga na-blogpost na ako about kay HIM. Marami-rami na rin. He was someone special. Siya `yung feeling lovelife ko. Charot! Seriously, siya ang tinuturing ko na tunay na lovelife. Marami kasi talaga akong imaginary lovelife. Si HIM... Seryoso siya. Hindi ko masasabing boyfriend ko siya pero he was someone special. I knew he feels the same way, too, for me. I feel. Kaya lang...komplikado ang mga bagay para sa amin.

He had been with me for almost 2 years. We never met personally but still, he had this special place in my heart. Nakakatawa `no? But he was always there for me... THEN. Kaya siguro nahulog ang loob ko sa kanya. The way he treats me, I really feel so special. Pero dati `yun. Hindi ko ma-explain na ngayon.

There's a lot of problems between us this days. Or should I say on his part. I am always free. I always give time with him. Iyon ay dahil nga sa nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Pero palagi na lang akong naghihintay. Palagi na lang ako ang kailangang umawa. Palaging ako na lang ang maging pasenyosa.

Nakakapagod rin. Nakakasakit rin.

May mga taong nagsasabi sa akin na i-let go ko na daw ang lahat. Nasasaktan na daw kasi ako, eh.

Madaling sabihin. Mahirap gawin.

I have this classmate na palagi kong sinasabihan na... "ang tanga-tanga mo!" as in... malapit ko nang sabihin `yun sa kanya nang harapan. Kasi naman... She had been in a relationship with a guy for 3 years. Nagli-live-in na nga sila noong guy. Pero sabi nila, niloloko daw ni guy si girl. Si girl naman, ilang beses nang nakipag-break sa kanya si guy, ayon at binabalikan pa rin. Niloloko na nga siya, patuloy pa rin si girl. Ayaw niyang i-let go si guy. Inis na inis na ako sa kanya talaga. Lahat kaming magkaklase naiinis na sa relasyon nila ni guy. Nakita ko na si guy personally dahil isinama siya ni girl sa dinner sa school last december. Okay lang naman itsura ni guy. Medyo jeje type nga lang. Hindi ko matanggap na hindi niya kayang i-let go si guy. I think she deserves someone else. `Yung hindi siya sasaktan. Marami pang lalaki diyan.

Pero ganyan naman tayo palagi.

Na-realize ko na mali pala ang ginagawa ko. Na sana inintindi ko `yung classmate ko. Na-realize ko dahil sa experience na ito na kapag nagmahal ka, kahit niloloko slash sinasaktan ka na nang mahal mo, kapag minahal mo talaga, mahirap mag-let go. I'm not saying na niloloko ako ni HIM. Pero sa mga nangyayari ngayon...nasasaktan na ako. Nasasaktan ako na wala siya sa mga times na kailangan ko siya. Nasasaktan ako dahil wala siyang time sa akin. Masakit para sa akin na sinabihan niya ako na hindi ako ang priority niya. Pinilit kong intindihin iyon dahil nandiyan pa rin naman siya palagi sa tabi ko...NOON. Kahit may studies siya, nagbibigay siya ng time sa akin. Pero ngayon, feeling ko...wala na. Palagi niyang sasabihin, see you later. Pero hindi siya darating. At ako? Naghihintay ako. Kahit alam kong kailangan kong gumising nang maaga bukas, nagpupuyat ako para hintayin siya. Pero siya? Pakiramdam ko, hindi niya ako sinisingit man lang. Ah, there were times he did. Pero hindi napapantayan ang effort na ginagawa ko.

Ilang beses na akong umiyak nang dahil sa kanya. Kahit sa mga naging boyfriend ko noon, hindi ako umiyak nang ganito. Parang kaunti nga lang ang iniluha ko sa kanila.  But with HIM...kailangan ko pa talaga ng tissue para pahirin ang luha ko. Ilang beses na akong naghihintay. Para lang akong timang na nakatingin sa button na iyon kung kailan siya iilaw ng kulay green. Palagi na lamang siyang wala. Palaging ako na lang dapat ang umunawa.

Para sa future niyo `yun, natatawa ako kapag binubulungan ako ng inner self ko about that. Wow, ang lakas ng imagination ko! Hahaha! I know how important his studies to him. Pero paano naman ako? Napapagod rin ako. Tao ako. At may nararamdaman ako kaysa sa mga studies na `yan. Sana naman unahin mo rin ako kahit minsan... Sana...

Dahil hindi kita kayang i-let go. Masyado kitang mahal para gawin `yun...


xx

Cady

Trust

Good evening! Last Monday I met a guy in a chat site. I felt bored that night thats why I went there. Then mukha namang mabait ang guy na ito dahil hindi siya iyong lalaking madalas kong i-disconnect. So I consider chatting him and add him sa facebook. And yes, sa Cady, dahil hindi iyon ang personal account ko.

I told Riyan what happened. Ako naman kasi iyong tipo ng taong palaging sinasabi ang lahat sa kanya. Parang diary ko kaya iyon. Then hindi naman niya gaanong pinansin. Until today.

Nakasabay ko silang maka-chat and I told him na sorry kung mukha akong boring kausap ngayon kasi may ka-chat pa akong iba bukod sa `yo. Sinabi ko nga naka-chat ko rin iyong guy na sinabi ko sa kanya. Sabi niya, di naman daw niya masyadong pinansin iyong k-in-opy ko na pag-uusap namin from that chat site. Sabi niya, wala naman daw siyang karapatan na mag-intrude sa freedom ko kaya hinayaan na lang niya. Pero may sinabi siya sa akin.

This was his words:

HIM: but i strongly feel that he is an Indian and he is trying to cheat you

  HIM: i dont knowHIM: i may be wrong aloshis closing remarks looks like he is trying to fish

  some men are like that

  they act smart and decent in the begning

 HIM: they leave a bite for others to get attracted

  thats my view

(marami pa sana akong gustong idagdag, nga lamang, baka mabasa ni toooot at maghinala siya) :P


At ako naman itong si Tanga, kinontra ko p ang sinabi niya. Feeling ko tuloy, ang mean ko. Siya na kaya iyong concern sa akin tapos bigla ko pa siyang sinabihan na "Maybe it was also your style to others". Then kinopy paste niya nang kinopy paste ang line na iyon. Hindi man niya sabihin, feeling ko, nasaktan siya dahil sa sinabi ko. Siguro dahil inisip ko na katulad ng guy na iyon, ganoon rin siya. Kahit alam kong ang totoo ay hindi naman.

I have so much trust to Riyan. And I know I had his trust, too. Lahat na yata, napag-usapan namin. Sabi nga niya sa akin, mas matagal pa raw niyang nakakausap ako kaysa sa mga friends or relatives niya sa telepono. Paano, ang dami naming kuwento sa isa't isa. He was my bestest friend. I like his frankness when it comes to me. Ang honest-honest niya to the point na minsan nakakairita na ang pagka-honest niya! Hehe ~~~


xx
Cady

Realizations 101

Last friday, nawalan kami ng klase sa Finance dahil na-require kaming um-attend ng seminar na nagta-tackle about sa mga international students sa school namin. Marami kasi sa amin na foreigners...and most of them are Nigerians. Actually, mayroon akong classmate na Nigerian sa isang class ko. Sa Marketing. Irregular student kasi ako kaya kung saan-saan akong section napupunta! He-he. Sa Department ko, walang Nigerian student kaya hindi pa ako nakaka-experience kahit na ba last year pa naglipana ang mga Nigerians sa school.

Everytime na papasok iyong classmate kong Nigerian, lagi akong nakatingin sa kanya. Well, hindi lang ako kundi ang iba ko rin na classmate. We we're like, "Oh, Ninang mo,". Naging expression na naman iyon kapag nakikita namin siya. O di kaya kapag may kakaiba sa kanya, sasabihin namin, "Taray ng Ninang mo"...

So I was like, natamaan ako sa seminar na in-attend-an namin. Na-guilty ako. Hindi lang kasi ang mga classmate namin na Nigerian ang palagi naming, sabihin na nating, pinupuna namin palagi. He-he! Hindi rin kami namamansin ng ganoon. Naalala ko, one time, nagtanong sila sa akin sa canteen at hindi ako nakaimik kasi sobrang natakot ako. When the truth is, mababait naman sila.

Na-realize ko, paano kung ako naman ang nagpunta sa ibang bansa? Kunwari, naging exchange student ako o doon ako nagtrabaho. Baka maging ganoon din ako. No friends tapos palagi na lang pinagtitinginan ng mga tao o di kaya pinagtatawanan kasi kakaiba. So kahapon at ngayon, palagi ko ng sinasaway iyong friends ko na, "O, `wag na tayong ganyan, ha". Tapos ngumingiti-ngiti na rin ako sa kanila.

Buti na lang talaga, nakasama kami sa seminar na iyon. Free food na, na-inspire pa ako sa message ng seminar, and well, na-cute-an rin ako sa speaker. So Thank You Mr. Kurt Paolo Sevilla na siyang nagpaliwanag ng lahat kaya nalinawan ako tungkol dito. :)


xx
Cady