Ilang araw na lang October na. And I am really nervous for this month. Ito `yung month na magkakaalamanan na kung ga-graduate ba ako o hindi. Its our defense day month! At sino ba ang hindi matatakot na mag-defense?
Our defense day should be on October 9. But due to the suspension of classes last August, our school days were extended. We are going to have the defense on October 16 and 17. Two freaking days! Our class were in panic. Alam namin na lahat kami ay nasa bingit since---ayaw ko ng i-explain kung bakit.
Pero hindi lang ito ang dahilan kung bakit kinakabahan ako. Most of my upcoming books is expected to be released this month---and that includes my trilogy. Ahhhh, it has been almost a year since I wrote the first book. I like that book since bet ko talaga gumawa ng ganoong klase ng story. Pero natatakot pa rin ako dahil alam kong hindi ko na-build up masyado yung iba kong characters sa book 1. Isa-isa pa naman ang release ngayon ng mga trilogy/series. Isama pang... kinakabahan talaga ako sa magiging reaction ng readers dito.
My heroes were not perfect, pati na rin ang kanilang mga heroine. My God, dito nga pala ako mas kinakabahan. Lalo na doon sa book 2 and 3. May something kasi sa mga characters nila na well, di masyadong maganda. Yay! But I hope, they would give a chance of buying it, or if any chance, liking or loving it! Ah, plus the cover---I made that myself. Kaya nakakaba lalo na at hindi naman ako magaling sa mga ganyan. Gusto ko lang talaga mapalagay ung name ko sa cover concept. Mehehe!
And oh, its also finals week this month. But I'm not bothered by that. Yung defense lang talaga saka ung pag-release ng books ko. Wew!
At isama na rin natin pala yung result ng pending manuscript ko. Mehehe!
xx
Cady
Thursday, September 26, 2013
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Happy 2 years :)
"I love you. I can’t see your smile or hold your hand; but I hear your voice. And every word you speak makes me fall in love with you all over again."
(c) Tumblr
When I saw this quote.... I immediately thought of him. Ah, perks of having an *eherm* in another country.
Its already September and we've been together for 2 years. Together? Ah, together as good friends---as we call it. I am happy that I have found a guy like him, a guy whom I can share all my rants, my opinions, thoughts, and can even told my deepest secrets that I've never even told to my real close friends and best friends. He was a guy whom I can ask anything, share anything... its the first time I've been really close and attach to a guy and even know him that close for so long... I have failed relationships in the past, so I am really thankful for having him this long. Even if we're not that official and I can't say that he's mine, still, he was a guy I am looking for. A companion? Well, something like that. A guy who can handle my immaturity and can understand the "mean" me.
I just hope we'll last longer... Build more deeper relationship? LOL. I know for the coming next month, it would be harder. We are both having internships---he'll go to Mumbai again. Back to the "Sunday rendezvous" again, I think. This time, it would be longer...so it would be harder. I just hope that everything won't change that much.
xx
Cady
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
I don't want to be sick!
Yesterday I went to a diagnostic clinic for some laboratory test. Its a requirement to have those for my internship in Toyota next sem. I was kinda nervous since I am afraid that they might find out that I have some problems in my body. And well, the doctor find out some problems in my blood. She said that I have a high count of platelets. I felt so afraid that time since the HR in Toyota told us that most of the applicants problems are in the medical side. A lot of what if's come to my mind because of my mind.
My mind was set that I am going to have the internship in Toyota. And this problem came up. Really, I felt like crying in front of the doctor the time she told me I need to repeat my CBC. But she calmed me and told that it was not serious though. I should just rest and take plenty of water and I'll be back to normal again. She said that it was also because of my cold.
I keep thinking a lot about it. They told me that I should go back for the repeat test after 4 days. So that means I can't pass it on the deadline of passing---on Saturday. But the medtech told me I can passed the result. And if Toyota would ask me to take it again, then that is the time I should repeat. Its not only me that have that kind of problem. Most of us my co-interns/classmates have problems, too, in our health. So I should not think about it a lot. But I don't want to be sick! Never again. Especially that yesterday, I feel bad. I feel like having a fever. That worry me the most.
I don't like having fever. Who do like? And I posted about this damn sickness in my facebook account and someone told me I should take care since dengue is common nowadays. I already have experience with the kind of disease. I've been hospitalized for almost a week. Aside from that, nagdeliryo ako ng time na `yun. My mom said that I feel like I lose my sanity in the emergency room. I don't know what I am doing and they are very afraid that time since I'm not in my self. I am doing a lot of crazy things because of high fever they thought they will lose me. They said I am fighting w/ the other patient, do "Darna" in the bed, and talk a lot about Enchanted Kingdom. I don't know what is happening to me that time. Then I've been confined that i want to go home so bad but my fever is still high. I missed a lot about school and my classmates have been texting me to get well soon since its intramurals time and I am the player of our class in scrabble. I am their bet since I've been the champion in our batch for 3 consecutive years. And our class lost it because I am not there.
I don't want to be sick. I want to rest but I have a lot of duties at home. Mom can't do a lot of things `cause she was paralyzed. I am always the one who do things. Especially now that water in our village is a main problem. Uggghhh!!! I should not be stress but I can't help it. I have a lot of duties not just in school but in our home. ><
xx
Cady
My mind was set that I am going to have the internship in Toyota. And this problem came up. Really, I felt like crying in front of the doctor the time she told me I need to repeat my CBC. But she calmed me and told that it was not serious though. I should just rest and take plenty of water and I'll be back to normal again. She said that it was also because of my cold.
I keep thinking a lot about it. They told me that I should go back for the repeat test after 4 days. So that means I can't pass it on the deadline of passing---on Saturday. But the medtech told me I can passed the result. And if Toyota would ask me to take it again, then that is the time I should repeat. Its not only me that have that kind of problem. Most of us my co-interns/classmates have problems, too, in our health. So I should not think about it a lot. But I don't want to be sick! Never again. Especially that yesterday, I feel bad. I feel like having a fever. That worry me the most.
I don't like having fever. Who do like? And I posted about this damn sickness in my facebook account and someone told me I should take care since dengue is common nowadays. I already have experience with the kind of disease. I've been hospitalized for almost a week. Aside from that, nagdeliryo ako ng time na `yun. My mom said that I feel like I lose my sanity in the emergency room. I don't know what I am doing and they are very afraid that time since I'm not in my self. I am doing a lot of crazy things because of high fever they thought they will lose me. They said I am fighting w/ the other patient, do "Darna" in the bed, and talk a lot about Enchanted Kingdom. I don't know what is happening to me that time. Then I've been confined that i want to go home so bad but my fever is still high. I missed a lot about school and my classmates have been texting me to get well soon since its intramurals time and I am the player of our class in scrabble. I am their bet since I've been the champion in our batch for 3 consecutive years. And our class lost it because I am not there.
I don't want to be sick. I want to rest but I have a lot of duties at home. Mom can't do a lot of things `cause she was paralyzed. I am always the one who do things. Especially now that water in our village is a main problem. Uggghhh!!! I should not be stress but I can't help it. I have a lot of duties not just in school but in our home. ><
xx
Cady
Monday, September 9, 2013
Credit Cash.
Hash tag, Rants.
`Cause I earn some money in writing, people around me thought I am rich. Well, not really rich but I have money. Ang akala ng mga kaklase ko, porque nagkakaroon ako ng pera sa pagsusulat, akin na yun. But no! I am saving the money for the future... but the future already happened dahil wala na akong pera. Huhu.
For the last few months, nagastos ko na lahat nang naipon ko sa pagsusulat. Last year, I paid almost half of my grandfather's expense in the hospital. I bought a new cellphone this April and even paid my tuition fee in my summer classes (na kapresyo rin ng cellphone ko ang halaga). I also paid for my tuition fee this sem. And it costs more than 40,000 pesos! Ugggh... I feel so broke pero ayaw ko namang umasa na sa Mommy ko. I am happy that hindi na siya ganoon gumagastos para sa akin at sa Kuya ko. Na nakakabili na siya ng mga bagay na matagal na niyang gustong bilhin---like a new TV and aircon. We also have installed able in our house. Masaya ako na hindi na kami pumupunta ng Afsplai every year to withdraw money for my tuition fee. Pero `yung bulsa ko, umiiyak na talaga. Huhuhuhu.
Last month, I got an approved manuscript. And after the day I got the approval mail, na-tempt akong bumili ng bagong bedsheet with comforter. Oh well, that is one of my dream and I am so grateful that I already fulfill that. Pinatos ko na kasi sale na rin naman and reward ko na rin sa sarili ko. Sabi ko noon, malaki-laki pa rin naman ang matitira sa pera ko dahil magkakaroon nga ako ng bagong approve. Pero wala, naabo rin. Bakit? Dahil I also pay for my grandfather's hospitalization/death expense. And today...the heartbreaking price of our prototype in feasibility study! Huhuhu talaga. At marami pang babayaran dahil sa grammarian, adviser and panel expense! Isama pa ang laboratory fees na babayaran ko na requirements para sa internship company ko. (I'm just glad na nakapasa ako sa Toyota! Sobrang kaba ko talaga rito dahil ang bilis ng time limit ng exam, akala ko bagsak na ako. Isama pa na feeling ko sablay `yung interview sa akin. Nakaka-trauma `yung nangyari that day sabi ko, `di na ako uulit. Chos!) Tapos gusto ko rin pumunta sa MIBF.... pero wala na talaga akong pera panggastos!!! ><
Kailan kaya ako makaka-debit Cash? Wala pa naman ako pending manuscript. Wala rin ako drive na magsulat. Tinatamad nga akong ituloy itong sinusulat ko to think na 2 chapters na lang yata at tapos na ito. Ugggh, Kaasar talaga. Feeling ko kasi, `di kami destined ni Riyan... at ng best friend turn to lovers story.... ><
Haay... Lord. Please help me.
xx
Cady
`Cause I earn some money in writing, people around me thought I am rich. Well, not really rich but I have money. Ang akala ng mga kaklase ko, porque nagkakaroon ako ng pera sa pagsusulat, akin na yun. But no! I am saving the money for the future... but the future already happened dahil wala na akong pera. Huhu.
For the last few months, nagastos ko na lahat nang naipon ko sa pagsusulat. Last year, I paid almost half of my grandfather's expense in the hospital. I bought a new cellphone this April and even paid my tuition fee in my summer classes (na kapresyo rin ng cellphone ko ang halaga). I also paid for my tuition fee this sem. And it costs more than 40,000 pesos! Ugggh... I feel so broke pero ayaw ko namang umasa na sa Mommy ko. I am happy that hindi na siya ganoon gumagastos para sa akin at sa Kuya ko. Na nakakabili na siya ng mga bagay na matagal na niyang gustong bilhin---like a new TV and aircon. We also have installed able in our house. Masaya ako na hindi na kami pumupunta ng Afsplai every year to withdraw money for my tuition fee. Pero `yung bulsa ko, umiiyak na talaga. Huhuhuhu.
Last month, I got an approved manuscript. And after the day I got the approval mail, na-tempt akong bumili ng bagong bedsheet with comforter. Oh well, that is one of my dream and I am so grateful that I already fulfill that. Pinatos ko na kasi sale na rin naman and reward ko na rin sa sarili ko. Sabi ko noon, malaki-laki pa rin naman ang matitira sa pera ko dahil magkakaroon nga ako ng bagong approve. Pero wala, naabo rin. Bakit? Dahil I also pay for my grandfather's hospitalization/death expense. And today...the heartbreaking price of our prototype in feasibility study! Huhuhu talaga. At marami pang babayaran dahil sa grammarian, adviser and panel expense! Isama pa ang laboratory fees na babayaran ko na requirements para sa internship company ko. (I'm just glad na nakapasa ako sa Toyota! Sobrang kaba ko talaga rito dahil ang bilis ng time limit ng exam, akala ko bagsak na ako. Isama pa na feeling ko sablay `yung interview sa akin. Nakaka-trauma `yung nangyari that day sabi ko, `di na ako uulit. Chos!) Tapos gusto ko rin pumunta sa MIBF.... pero wala na talaga akong pera panggastos!!! ><
Kailan kaya ako makaka-debit Cash? Wala pa naman ako pending manuscript. Wala rin ako drive na magsulat. Tinatamad nga akong ituloy itong sinusulat ko to think na 2 chapters na lang yata at tapos na ito. Ugggh, Kaasar talaga. Feeling ko kasi, `di kami destined ni Riyan... at ng best friend turn to lovers story.... ><
Haay... Lord. Please help me.
xx
Cady
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