Bye 2012

So today is December 31, 2012...na muntik na akong magbagong taon sa bahay ng bestfriend ko...sabi ng tita ko. Joke! `De. Doon lang ako natulog sa bahay nila kagabi...kasi pinilit niya ako! Hahaha. Na-miss niya yata ako...kasi twice a year lang yata kami nagkikita. He-he. We watched a movie kasi, EL Presidente and...its worth watching...at sa sobrang sarap ng aming pagkukuwentuhan, ginabi na kami. Hehe.

Anyway...echos lang `yang first paragraph na `yan. Sinabi ko lang para ikuwento ang nangyari sa akin kahapon...Pero ang post na ito, ikukuwento ko naman ang nangyari sa aking buong taon. Pagbabalik tanaw sa year 2012!!!


JANUARY

January is my birthday month. At dahil I turned 18 this 2012, debut ko. After 11 years, nakapagpa-party ako nang ganoon kalaki. Well, not really that big naman ang debut party ko. Sabihin na lang nating, nag-celebrate ako ng birthday na ganoon kadami iyong handa. Eh kasi naman, debut rin ng Kuya ko this year. January 2 birthday niya and I'm January 5. 21 siya, 18 ako. So medyo marami yata. Hehe! Masaya naman ang birthday ko, (ayon sa aking natatandaan) kahit nakakapagod kasi ang tagal ko na bago di na kapag asikaso ng ganoon karaming guest. And ano pa ba ang nangyari sa January? Nag-debut rin pala iyong isa kong friend, which leads us to have a mini-reunion ng mga classmates ko noong highschool.

FEBRUARY

Love Month. Can I skip this? LOL. Ahmmm.. kuwento ko na lang ang nangyari sa akin noong Valentines Day kasi hindi ko matandaan kung ano nga ba ang nangyari sa akin ng month na ito. Natatandaan ko pa kasi iyong araw na iyon---na nawalan kami ng klase dahil absent ang professor. Eh isang subject lang iyon kaya wala buong araw. Nagpunta akong SM para...magbayad ng internet connection! Ahehe! And bumili ng cake...na nilagyan ko ng from Guji iyong card. Nyahaha.. Then bandang hapon, t-in-ext ako ni crush. (eherm!) telling me kung nasaan daw ako. Eh 4pm iyon, tulog ako kasi natulog ako ng 3pm. Nabasa ko 5pm. One hour late! Noong nagreply ako..w/c is 30 minutes after pa...sabi niya, yayain sana niya akong magdate!!!! Ahhh, s-in-ave ko pa ang text na iyon sa phone ko kasi kinilig ako...kahit nabuwisit ako sa sarili ko kasi natulog ako. Sayaaaaaaaang. ><

MARCH

Ito ang isa sa mga pinakamadugong month ng mga estudyante---finals kasi. At alam kong ganoon rin ako. Hindi ko masyadong maalala. Pero ang alam ko ay gumawa yata kami ng video noon sa physical science. at dinugo kami sa reporting sa quantech, ah, I mean, defense pala sa quantech. At lumabas rin ang aking 2nd book na bigla pa akong kinabahan kasi days before that, nagtext sa akin si Ate Karen, telling me "Caspian"... ewan ko, kinabahan ako sa paglabas niya. Hehe!

APRIL

Ito ang month na ginawa ko si Guji :) Na two weeks kong ginawa kasi...nagmahal na araw? And si HIM... nag-exam siya. Final exams nila and twice a week lang kami nagkaka-chat...na nag-adjust pa ako kasi di naman kami ganoon dati. Pero matagal naman a day iyong twice a week na iyon. And lumabas rin si Derrick my loves <3

MAY

Na-approve si Guji! And I cant...believe it. Yay! Nagkita rin kami ng mga fellow writers ko, which is first time ko rin pala na-meet si Ate Skye Reyes. Nag-bonding kami sa SM North which is first time kong pumunta doon kaya hindi ko alam kung paano umuwi. Pero buti na lang nakita ko si Maizee na nagturo sa akin ng daan pauwi! Hehe! First time ko rin...na nagpunta sa Recto! Ang dami kong first time sa Manila noong May. Kaloka! Nagtry rin ako ng entry para sa Angels Myth...pero di ko pinasa. I mean, di ko tinapos. Hehehe. And ginawa ko rin si Athena... at nagplan ako ng trilogy ko.... at ginawa ko rin pala ang first book. Hehe.

JUNE

Nakakalahati na ako! Yey! At kung ang March ay isa sa mga pinakamahirap na buwan ng mga estudyante..eh ang June rin. :P Kasi bye-bye vacation. Ahuhuhu! 3rd year college na ako...and HELL na pala ito...kasi dahil sa Law. Thursday is my hell day... pero wala namang saturday class. :P And Ahmmm.. dito ko pala nakuha iyong gift na padala ni HIM. :D

JULY

Returned si Patch. Huhu. Iyong first book ng trilogy ko. Revision pa rin si Athena. Nag-adjust ako nang bongga nito sa Law Class ko. To the point na nagsusunog pa ako ng kilay. "PA" talaga. Hehe. Nagbirthday rin yata si Ate Nikka ng month na ito so nagpunta muli ako ng Manila para makibonding.

AUGUST

Ito iyong bumagyo...nang bongga! Nawalan kami ng pasok for a week...at nasira ang nalintikan kong laptop! Ahh, nawalan pa ng internet connection noon for a week rin...noong week pa na walang pasok. So imagine-in niyo ang inis ko...NOON. Hehe! Nagkayayaan kaming manood ng mga classmates ko noong highschool ng The Reunion...which is medyo masakit sa akin...kasi...kasi... Hahahaha. Kasi na-feel ko ng bongga ang character ni Jessie Mendiola doon! At kung bakit...kasi.... i-message niyo na lang ako sa facebook kung may curious... At ito rin ang month na na-approve si Athena :))

SEPTEMBER

Ang month na...hindi na kami kagaya ng dati ni Riyan. Sad,,,,because he's entering masters and he needed to be serious. Minsan na lang niya ako i-chat. Until now!!! At may nangopya rin ng novel ko sa wattpad. Errr. and Na-approve ang first ever translation ko... Yey! At nabuo ang 2nd trilogy ko, (kasi na-returned ang first)... and... dito rin pala ang book fair na nakita ko muli ang aking soulmate---ay este, si host Jasper dahil siya ang host ng cocktail party ng PHR. I remember that was one of my happiest days because of my friends :*

OCTOBER

One of the busiest month rin sa college...sa mga college students kasi magse-sembreak. Nag-fieldtrip nga pala kami this month sa BSP. (Shocks, to think na ito ang first ever fieldtrip ko noong college) Hehehe. Kumain pa kami noon sa isang mamahaling restaurant---na ang kasama namin ay mga businessman. Nakakaloka ang mga itsura naming mga naka-jacket pa kasi malamig ang panahon. Pero sa isip-isip ko naman, eh ano, future businesswoman rin naman kami! Hahahah! Dito rin pala naganap ang carshow sa school namin....na yay! nakapagpa-picture ako kay James at nakasakay sa porsche. And so sad to say, ito rin ang month na namatay ang Mommy ng fellow writer kong si Ate Skye... and hindi ako nakapunta kasi poorita ako dahil na-ospital ang lolo ko that month at hiniram ni Mommy lahat ng ipon ko.

NOVEMBER

Half of it is sembreak. Namatay rin iyong Mommy ng fellow writer kong si Ate Karen... Pero nakapunta naman ako this time kasi binayaran ako ng slight... ni Mommy. Then this month ay ginagawa ko si Keith. Na nakailang ulit ako!!! Lumabas si Guji---ang aking 4th book. at napansin ako nang bongga ni Guji. So this is my happiest month of being a fan girl. Nyahahaha. At na-approve nga rin pala ang first book noong 2nd trilogy ko na hindi ko talaga expected... at naranasan ko rin...ang hagupit ng 3rd year 2nd sem.

DECEMBER

Ito na iyong month na umiiyak na ako dahil feel na feel ko na ang hirap ng pagiging estudyante. At nag-CBA week nga rin pala na kumanta na naman kami ng Bracken Siongers. Listen and If I Aint Got You ang kinanta namin... sa STAGE ha! Hahaha! Pero `di contest. Ang sakit talaga ng lalamunan ko pagkatapos, feeling ko, `di na ako nakapagsalita nang ayos after. Pero thumbs up kasi ang saya talagang kumanta sa stage. :p Nanalo rin pala ako sa Amazing Race, nakakuha ng 100 pesos gift certificate sa DQ at nag-sleep over ang brackens sa bahay after the dinner night. And yay! Dito ko rin nagawa na nag-skip ako ng school, na almost one week na wala akong sakit dahil sa brainstorming sa Anvaya na super worth it naman ang pag-absent ko. :P Struggling kami ni Stock...pero sana matapos ko na siya sa wednesday. Please. Please. And Christmas w/ my family...na enjoy naman. Nagbonding w/ my BFF and Perey dahil sa panonood ng El Presidente. And today, last day of the year.


And hoping... it will be better than this year. More approved manuscripts, good health to me and my family, good grades ( I hope) and HAPPINESS!!!


THANK YOU LORD!!!!


xx
Cady

The Next Big Thing

Because I was tagged by my friend/fellow writer, Nikki Del Rosario, I decided to make my own TNBT, too :)

1) What is the working title of your next book?
- I have four upcoming books...but I don't know when it will be released. But I am expecting Athena's Story (sister of Venus in I'll Stay In Love With You) entitled Can't Help Falling In Love will be the first in line.

2) Where did the idea come from for the book?
In a mini series by Jessica Hart---the Princess Swap because the heroine and her best friend also swap in the story :D

3) What genre does your book fall under?
-Romance ♥

4) What actors would you choose to play the part of your characters in a movie rendition?
- Carlo Romero! Well, I got the hero's name from his name. And Athena, well, can the writer be the actress, too? LOL

5) What is the one-sentence synopsis of your book?
- A brokenhearted girl meets a brokenhearted man where they will share the same room for a two-week vacation and fall in love with each other.

6) Will your book be self-published or represented by an agency?
-It will be published under Precious Hearts Romances.

7) How long did it take you to write the first draft of the manuscript?

- First draft: Two weeks. But it takes two revision feedback so the approved feedback took for months.

8) What other books would you compare this story to within your genre?

- Because it was inspired by the Princess Swap series, maybe I can compared it to that. But the story...is not a royal type one...and Athena's best friend don't have a story. She's just a filler in the novel.

9) Who or what inspired you to write this book?
- Hmmm... I don't really know. Maybe "Artemis", my favorite character among all the stories I've wrote. I just want her to have exposure again. LOL

10) What else about the book might pique the reader’s interest?
- Maybe the setting of the novel.. Ah, for those people who want to go to "Amanpulo" like me, well, you can go there (in dreams) by simply reading the novel. :D

Tagged: (Underconstruction.... :P)

Anvaya Cove Escapade

Good evening! Yey! Status right now: ecstatic!

Finally, after weeks na iniisip ko ang "regrets" sa buhay ko, ngayon hindi na... Because I've done something/join in what I knew I will love and enjoy too :)

Last December 13 and 14, PHR staff/writers went to Anvaya Cove, Morong Bataan because of Brainstorming and also the writers christmas party. Sa totoo lang, dapat ay hindi na talaga ako kasama dito. Last November pa kasi nag-invite si Miss A, and I declined dahil may klase ako noon---na nagkataong thursday-friday pa at kinabukasan ay hell day ko. Inisip ko rin na mag-exam na kami kinabukasan kaya inisip kong `wag na lang. Pero dahil sa pagdaan ng days, nakita kong hindi magkaka-exam at maluwag ang schedules ko ng Thursday and Friday---tinext ko si Miss A. Sabi niya, di na raw puwede kasi naka-reserve na...Nagka-regrets na naman ako noong day na iyon. Pero nagtext siya last Monday and puwede na raw akong sumama---and yay! Muntik na rin akong magdalawang isip pero hindi! Nag-okay pa rin ako and its all worth it that I left school for 2 days just to join the activity---na actually halos whole week akong absent kasi absent rin ako last Tuesday to get my check sa PHR! He-he!

Tuesday night pa lang, excited na ako. Halos di rin ako nakatulog dahil naiisip ko na. Then kinabukasan, sabi ko sa sarili ko, di ako tutulog ng morning kasi baka di ako makatulog sa gabi. And yay! 12midnight na ako nakatulog and 3am ako gumising kasi ang call time ay 6am sa office and I'm from Batangas pa. Nagkita kami ni Tyra and Ate Jelaine (my fellow writers) sa Buendia. Kumain pa kami ni Tyra sa McDo ng Breakfast, na actually kumain ako kasi naisip kong baka late kami makadating ng Bataan at di ako makakain ng breakfast---na nag-iisa kong pinanghinayangan dahil may breakfast pala sa office! Hehe! Then mga 8am pa kami umalis papunta Bataan and 11 yata nandoon na kami. Super ganda ng place at ang sarap magrelax! Pero di rin relaxation/vacation ang peg kahit ganoon dapat ang lugar--kakulta ng utak dahil sa brainstorming! He-he! Pero okay lang naman sana...iyon nga lang, iniisip ko kasi na may pasok ako kinabukasan---na hell day ako kaya kinakabahan ako. But good thing, mabait pa rin si Lord dahil nawalan na naman kami ng klase this morning sa Law! Hindi haggard! Hahah!

Worth it sa pagkain sa Anvaya! As in, mawawalan ka ng appetite sa sobrang dami ng pagkain. LOL. And lahat `yun, may picture ako. :D

 Breakfast

Merienda:

Dinner: (Kaunti lang kasi busog na busog pa ako)

Breakfast: Napa-heavy XD

Lunch again ^___^

Cocktails:

I love their Iced Tea <3

At talagang food ang pinost ko `no? Eh bano lang, eh. Minsan lang---ahmm, first time lang pala ako nakaranas ng ganyang kabonggang food. Hahaha! As in, di man lang ako nakapagsalita na "gutom na ako" dahil hindi ka talaga magugutom. Ako pa naman ung babaeng palaging gutom, pero diyan, naging reklamo ko un. Hahah!


And here naman ang ibang pictures sa place at ako. Nyahah! :)

It was such a nice place na kahit isang araw pa lamang akong nakakaalis doon ay gusto ko na muling bumalik. Mami-miss ko ang food doon! Hahah! Buhay baboy lang ang peg ko doon. Char! Sasarap pa ng food. Sana, sana makabalik muli :))


xx
Cady

Rants

Last Night, I told myself I want to write a blog post about this because I feel so pressured and bad. Gustong-gusto kong maglabas ng sama ng loob kasi feeling ko, hindi ko na kaya. Na sobrang pagod na ako when the truth is, I am just starting. Pero dahil nasabi ko na last post ko na iyon na ang last, so ngayon na lang dahil December na. Kasi naman, kahit naiiyak ko na kagabi iyong sakit ng damdamin ko, hanggan ngayon napi-feel ko pa rin siya.

My schedule this sem is fucked-up. I'm taking 3 major subjects, with 3 hours time every Saturday. From 8am - 6pm nasa school ako at one hour lamang ang break ko. At talagang halos sa pagkain lang ang one hour na iyon.

My first subject every Saturday is law. My Law professor is so strict to the point na kahit nakasagot ka sa recitation, 75 ka lang. Samantalang iyong last sem law prof ko, 80 kahit di ka man lang magsalita habang nagre-recitation. At talagang kahit iyong mga classmate kong kulang na lang ay lagyan ng Magic Sarap dahil sa pangigisa niya, naka-80 lang. Isipin mo, nakatayo un ng 1 hour na siya lang ang tinatanong tapos 80 lang ang grade? Kaya naman ang sa 3 hour class namin today, 4 lang ang natawag.

My 2nd subject is MAS---Managerial Accounting and Services. And God, nakakaloka po ang mga assignment. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung saan hahagilap ng sagot lalo na at wala naman kaming background sa Cost Accounting. Super nakakaiyak na dahil everytime na lang may assignment. Maluwag ka nga sa weekend dahil wala kang major, pero dahil sa assignment, tadtad ka pa rin ng mga gawain.

And the last subject is Advance Accounting. At dahil may Accounting ito, wag na kayong magtaka kung mahirap talaga ito. Plus the added fact na last subject na namin ito---feeling namin dugo na utak namin. But good thing, kahit mukhang mataray ay magaling naman magturo ang professor. Ang dami kong naintindihan sa mga tinuro niya sa amin kanina dahil explain niya talaga lahat in a manner na madaling maintindihan.

And `yan, sinabi ko na lahat ng hinaing ko sa Saturday classes ko. At dahil rin sa mga `yan, wala tuloy di kami nakakuha ng Cost Accounting this sem kaya magsa-summer tuloy kami. Haay. Kaya iyon, ang dami kong regrets sa life ko na ngayon ko lang napagtanto.

Kung kinuha ko na sana ang Cost Accounting noong 2nd year pa lang ako, edi sana di na ako magsa-summer. Di naman kami overload `nun kaya puwede naming makuha at di rin conflict sa Sched. Sana nag-law na rin ako ng 2nd year pa ako para hindi ganito ang prof ko dahil hindi naman ito ang professor dati sa Law. Sana maluwag ang schedule ko ngayon. Sana di ako magsa-summer. Bakit ba kasi nagpasarap buhay ako noon? Nagdudusa tuloy ako ngayon.

When I'm doing some of my assignments, I always told myself, I regret picking this course. I know I am not really good in Math but the thing is, I challenge myself. I am not good in Math so I want to conquer what I am not good into. But still, I regret. Because I didn't follow what I really want. Kapag nakikita ko iyong mga ka-batch ko na kinukuha iyong course na gusto ko, naiinggit ako. Gusto ko kasi, sana man lang, nararanasan ko iyon. Na kahit mahirap mag-aral, at least, masyaa naman ako sa ginagawa ko kasi ginusto ko iyon. Ginusto ko rin naman ang challenge ko sa sarili ko. Iyon nga lamang, feeling ko, hindi ko na ito gusto. But you, know I can't just give up. I give up once---I don't want to give up again. Sandali na lang... Sandaling-sandali na lang, Cady... And after the challenge you gave to yourself, free ka na kung anong gustong gawin mo. `Di ba you have plans na? Na magsusulat ka muna. Na gagawin mo muna iyong bagay na gusto mo talagang gawin. Iyong bagay na kung saan ka masaya... Kaunting-tiis na lang `di ba? Kaunting iyak na lang kahit maraming-marami pang pressure...

Iyon `yun, eh. Iyong pressure kaya nahihirapan ako. Thinking that your friends are all good and you're not, that was the hardest part. Na iyong para sa kanila, ang dali-dali lang nito pero para sa `yo, hindi kasi hindi naman talaga iyon ang gusto mo. Na ang gagaling nila samantalang ikaw ang feeling mo sa sarili mo ang bobo-bobo mo. Palagi na lang, magsasabihan kami sa isa't isa, "Kaya natin ito! Kaya mo `yan!" when the truth is, ako, mukhang bibigay na. Kanina nga, kumakanta na lang ako ng "I won't give up," "Survivor", "I will survive" kasi gusto kong mag-survive. Pero kakayanin ko ito... Challenge lang ito ni God, `di ba? Sige na nga, TIWALA LANG.


xx
Cady

Beginnings....

Good evening! Here I am for the fourth and last post on this blog this month! Even if its just November 29 today, napagpasyahan ko na talagang ito ang last...pero siyempre for this month lang! He-he! Its just that I am busy and wala rin naman akong ma-post na something interesting kaya di na rin ako masyadong nagpo-post. Ikaw ba naman kasi, masyadong hina-haggard ng mga school works mo. 5 days kasi ang pasok ko ngayon sa school and every Saturday is really a hell day. Okay sana iyong mga weekdays, pero siyempre, maraming mga assignment na pinapagawa iyong mga pang-Saturday... Kaya un, parang wala din. >_<

Anyway, my post title is beginnings. Why? Its just about my writing experiences! And feel ko, non-sense post na naman ito. Well, may ibang post na may sense sa blog na ito? He-he!

I'm having dilemma's nowadays in writing my novel beginnings...Well, hindi ko ito problema dati. When I start writing a novel, hindi ako iyong tipo ng pagkatapos ng chapter 2, bura lahat ng chapter 2 dahil feeling mo ay ang boring and so on and so on. Pero ngayon... Yay! I am experiencing that! And shit, sobrang nakakainis!

Nagsimula ito nang isulat ko si Keith. Noong una, akala ko, dahil lang yun sa gusto kong maging maganda talaga siya dahil babasahin siya ng mga friends ko. Pero...si Stock! Ah-ah naman, pangatlong simula ko na naman ito! And super, nakakasakit ng ulo. :(

Stock is my 2nd book in my trilogy. And we are "stuck" to each other! Balik prologue na naman ako pero dapat talaga ay chapter 2 na ako. Para lang siyang si Keith! Naman, naman, naman! Sana naman, mawala ang sakit kong ito. So please... please... pray for my sanity again.


xx
Cady

4th book - Forever With You

Good evening! ~~ My fourth book was out last November 7, 2012 at ngayon lang ako nakapag-blog about this dahil ngayon lang ako sinipag. Ahehe! So dahil naging tradisyon ko na ang mag-blog about sa mga released book ko, magba-blog ako. And ahmmm. approved na nga rin pala si Cash! (Gusto ko sanang iibang post ito, iyon nga lang baka tamarin ako, so sama na lang dito, hehe!) Basta, di ko expected talaga ang mga nangyari last last week. But I'm happy :) Anyway, I love the cover rin pala ng 4th book ko. Green! OMG! I'm so in love with green so imagine my happiness.

Forever With You: Released Date: November 7, 2012 

“Gumawa tayo ng rules! Hindi kasali ang kiss!” giit ni Lady kay Guji.

“Ha? Eh, paano tayo magiging effective na lovers niyan kung walang kiss?”

“Puwede namang holding hands o hug basta walang kiss!”

He twitched his lips. “At bakit naman? Masama ba ang lasa ng mga labi ko kaya ayaw mong mahalikan akong muli?” sabi nito at unti-unti pang inilapit ang mukha sa kanya.

Parang binabayo ng sampung kabayo ang dibdib ni Lady habang inilalapit ni Guji ang mukha nito sa mukha niya. Naguguluhan si Lady sa nangyayari sa kanya. Nagkakasundo pa lang sila ni Guji sa mga batas na gagawin nilang palabas pero pakiramdam niya ay nagtataksil na ang puso niya. Hindi siya puwedeng ma-in love dito dahil nagpapanggap lang silang magnobyo. 

Kailangan niyang pigilan ang sarili niya. Guji was a self-professed playboy. She shouldn’t fall for his overpowering charms. Ngunit kaya ba niyang tanggihan ang makulit na puso niya? Lalo na at ipinaglihi yata sa asukal ang lalaking wala na nga silang audience ay feel na feel pa rin ang pagiging artista nito?

x Facts and Trivias portion:

--- The hero---was nicknamed after my major-major crush, Guji Lorenzana! Mahahalata mo naman iyon dahil sa nakakahiya kong proposal sa authors note ng book! Kahiya kasi naibigay ko kay Guji ang book at nabasa niya iyon! Hehe! Hindi ko ginamit ang real name niya dahil baka hindi puwede iyon kasi di naman ako nagpaalam sa kanya. Ginawa ko na lang na Junior kasi Junior talaga si Guji. Gregorio Lorenzana Jr. ang real name niya while here is aGUstin guirado JunIor. --- naka-up ang iba para malaman niyo kung paano naging Guji iyon :D

--- The heroine---Lady---that was because my pen name "Cady", malapit sa name na iyon and "Joy" came from my second real name at ang surname, dahil sa Alonzo's ni Ate Karen sa trilogy niyang Cupids Match.

--- Nakuha ko ang plot na ito habang nakikinig ako kay DJ Chacha ng mga 11 na yata un ng gabi. Nandoon kasi ako sa mga Lola ko at nasasanay akong natutulog ng gabing-gabi na tuwing bakasyon kaya di ko pa feel matulog. So nakinig na lang ako kay DJ Chacha. Iyong caller niya doon, siya ang inspirasyon ko kay "Claudine" na sobrang tanga sa pag-ibig. Nakaisip tuloy ako ng simula ng novel at nagtuloy-tuloy na hanggang mabuo ang kuwentong ito. And I got Claudine's name from my friend, Claudine Sampana. And Rene, dahil sa may gusto sa kanyang classmate namin na si Renz. ^_^ So you see, iba pa rin sa reality.

--- Mga 2 weeks ko rin itong sinulat kasi nagmahal na araw noon. At di ako pinapayagan ni Mom na magsulat kapag mahal na araw kaya naman natagalan. At nang natagalan, di ko tuloy siya masyadong na-enjoy sa huli.

--- Marami akong favorite parts dito. Iyon nga lamang, para sa akin, sobrang common ng kuwento niya kaya nagulat ako nang ma-approve talaga ito ng wala man lang revisions. Parang mababaw rin ang conflict ko sa dulo na ilang beses ko rin na pinalitan. But I'm so glad na-approved siya agad! Sino ba naman ang hindi matutuwa sa ganoon `di ba?

Wala na akong maidagdag so I guess ito na lang talaga. Hehe!

Xx

Cady

I'm hyperventilating

That feeling your major crush followed you on twitter, hold the book you made for him and said he will frame it.

Thank you Lord. I'm so blessed. Another dream came true.

xx

Cady

Fan-girling.

I may have a lot of crushes. Pero sa lahat yata ng naging crush ko, si Guji Lorenzana na iyong matagal and, well, super effort! Kaya naman super saya ako nang dahil sa nangyari sa araw na ito.

I am dying because of so much happiness I am feeling right now. To the point na mukha na akong tanga dito sa bahay dahil kanina pa po ako kinikilig! Patalon-talon ako na parang kiti-kiti sa upuan. Hindi mapakali. Lord God, thank you thank you thank you po for this day.

Tomorrow, my 4th book---forever with you---will be out in stores. The hero was named after my major major crush, Guji Lorenzana. So nag-tweet ako sa kanya. Tinag ko iyong picture ng book tapos sabi ko, sana maka-grab siya ng copy. Then nagulat ako sa sinabi niya:

Iyong totoo, hindi ko na inaasahang mag-reply si Guji. Bukod sa hindi naman niya pinapansin iyong ibang tweet ko, hindi niya rin ako pina-follow. Well, minsan nare-reply-an niya rin ako. Pero minsan lang. Okay lang. At least kahit "Minsan" `di ba? And right now... `yan na yata ang the best tweet na na-receive ko sa kanya ever! He-he! Send me an "Autograph copy"? OMG! Feel ko, iyong hair ko umabot na hanggang kanto. Autograph talaga? Kahit nga iyong ibinigay niya lang sa akin ang address niya, masayang-masaya na ako. As in, nung nakita ko ang DM niya, tumalon talaga ako. DM lang `yun, ha? Paano pa kaya kapag nakita ko siya sa personal? Baka himatayin na ako.

Naging crush ko siya nang una siyang lumabas sa Bud Brothers. Hindi ako nagko-collect ng Bud Brothers pero dahil crush ko nga siya, iyong story lang na ginampanan niya ang binili ko sa whole series. At paminsan-minsan pa ay pinapanood ko paulit-ulit iyong episode nila ni Kaye doon.

Then halos lahat yata ng movies na kasama siya---kahit iyong pa-extra-extra lang siya---pinapanood ko. At siyempre, ang latest ay iyong Suddenly Its Magic. Hindi ko crush si Mario, hindi rin ako fan ni Erich. Pero dahil nakita ko sa poster ang name ni Guji, niyaya ko ang mga friends ko. At kaya lang sila nanonood, dahil niyaya ko sila! He-he! Hindi naman ako tumili dun sa sinehan pero talagang inabangan ko lang ang paglabas ni Guji. At alam na alam ko kung ano lang ang mga words na sinabi niya---"Will you marry me", "Joey" and "Sino ka?". Nakakatawa pero siya lang talaga ang inabangan ko. The rest, na-bored lang ako sa sinehan. Di ko kasi trip iyong story! He-he! Parang ganoon rin iyong sa "Till My Heartaches End" eh. XD

Then may "Lorenzana" pen name. Wala po akong kamag-anak na Lorenzana. Kay Guji ko lang po iyon kinuha! He-he.

And our dog. Our dog was named after Guji, too! He-he. But she's a girl. Akala ko kasi noong una, boy ung dog namin kaya Guji ang pinangalan ko. Hindi ko na naman pinalitan nung nalaman kong girl pala siya dahil nasanay na siya. Kaya hanggang ngayon, Guji pa rin! He-he!

So ayon, super fan girl yata ako ni Guji. Pero na-realize ko nga na mas magandang mag-fan girl dun sa mga hindi ganoon kasikat na tao dahil sa movie na Suddenly Its Magic. Kasi mas less iyong kaagaw ko sa kanya. XD


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Cady

losing confidence

Hello! Good Afternoon. Well, a not so pleasant afternoon for me. But its okay. I was expecting this, okay? Gusto ko tuloy pagalitan ang sarili ko. Bakit ko ba kasi tinuloy pa iyon?

So Ares was "R". AGAIN. Ang tigas talaga ng ulo ni Ares. At ako rin. Sabi na kasi, papalitan ko plot niya. Pero pinagpatuloy ko pa rin iyong una kong nagawa. You see, naka-dalawa na siya, ha! Buti pa si Athena, kahit nakaka-ilang pa-revise, hindi naman siya, na-R. Well, option to revise lang. Eh si Ares. Tumataginting na "R" talaga! HAHAHAHA!

Gusto kong tumawa. Lagot na naman ako. Sabi na nga ba, sa characterization talaga ako namomroblema. Palagi na lang! Tsss. So I'm losing my confidence again. Ganito po ako kapag nare-returned-an ng manuscript. Lalo na at mukhang may problema rin sa characterization itong last manuscript ko. Si Cash. Haay, pangalawang trilogy ko pa naman iyon! Haay, Lord God. Good luck naman po sa akin.

Xx
Cady

Thoughts about "Let Me Stay With You"

I was bored---even if I need to study for our 2 remaining exams tomorrow---so I just decided to look sa  books ko in my room when I saw my "only one" copy of my 2nd book, Let Me Stay With You. Tinignan ko iyong book nang matagal bago ko siya basahin muli and napasabi na naman ako ng, "I regret writing this book,"

I'm expecting too much for this book. Actually, dati I always thought this would be my first book. Hindi ko kasi talaga in-expect na ma-approved ang story ni Rodney. For me, it was just a common one. I have a returned manuscript dati kasi na sinabihan ako na common daw ang plot. So I was okay, I am ready for a "returned" again. But it got approved, but Let Me Stay With You, didn't. It was first returned to me. Ito rin ang unang book na nagpa-critic ako sa mga friends ko kaya nalaman ko ang opinion nila bago ko pinasa. Tapos na-returned siya with 2 comments lang---nasabi ko na ito dati sa post ko rin dito---so pinag-isipan ko na i-revise siya and nang ni-revise ko siya, pina-revise siya sa akin naman at iyon nga, na-approved rin sa wakas. Sa mga nakabasa nito, siguro alam niyong may pagkamalalim ang story nito. Tragic, kumbaga. Kakaiba siya doon sa dalawa pang published novels ko and yeah, doon sa mga upcoming rin.

Then nang mabasa ito ng mga classmate ko noong na-publish na, palagi niyang sinasabi sa akin na hindi niya raw gusto ito. So okay, its fine for me. You can't please anybody naman `di ba? Pero may mga nagsasabi sa akin na mas gusto raw naman nila ito, kagaya noong Tita ko. Hindi niya raw kasi gusto iyong first novel ko tapos parang marami naman sa akin na nagsasabi na maganda raw iyon kumpara dito. So I was like, naguguluhan? So siguro nga, iba-iba lang talaga tayo ng taste.

Then back to my regret. Why I do have regret? Iyon ay dahil sa pinatay ko si Casey. Minsan, napapaisip rin ako, bakit ko nga ba siya pinatay? Puwede naman siyang hindi mamatay. Then naisip ko, sabagay, reality rin naman ito. May mga tao talaga na namamatay after surgeries. Napanood ko kasi iyon dati noong bata pa ako sa isang news na after a week or so, namatay sa surgery iyong inoperahan sa puso. So I researched about it. Tapos ginawa ko siyang twist kasi nga naman, parang hindi ka mag-e-expect ng ganoon `di ba? Para maiba naman. Siguro nga, sabi nila kailangan daw maging masaya ang reader sa pagbabasa, hindi mapaiyak, hindi ma-disappoint. Pero I'm looking at the reality side...

Nangyayari talaga na nawawalan tayo sa buhay, na may mga taong sobrang naging madrama ang buhay kagaya ni Marianne, at may mga lalaking nasasaktan rin dahil sa isang babae kagaya ni Caspian. People come and go. Hindi lahat ng nagpapasaya sa atin, hindi lahat ng mahalaga para sa atin at hindi lahat ng akala natin ay hindi natin kayang mabuhay ng wala siya sa piling natin ay palaging nandiyan.

xx

Cady

Annoyed with...*sighs*

Good evening! As I've been saying sa mga last posts ko, I'm currently writing Cash's story. And I feel like abandoning a manuscript again. Bakit? Kasi, hindi dahil kay Cash, kundi sa heroine niya.

Sabi ko sa sarili ko, I want to challenge myself. Gusto kong gumawa ng story na puro POV lang ng heroine. Well, hindi naman pala lahat POV ng heroine dito dahil sa prologue, POV ng hero. Pero iyon lang talaga. Parang gagawin ko kasing twist kung ano ba talaga ang feelings niya. Ganoon.

Then I was okay naman sa mga first parts... Hanggang napi-feel ko, grabe, parang nakakainis na itong si *insert heroines name*. May theme rin kasi itong kuwento ni Cash. Nabasa ko kasi dati, na dapat daw, makaka-relate ang mga readers sa heroine ng story ng isang nobela. So I said, siguro naman kahit papaano, may makaka-relate kay *insert heroines name* kasi nakaka-relate ako sa kanya. In denial kasi siya sa feelings niya. Ganoon iyong main problem ng story.

Pero syeeet, feeling ko, sobrang in denial na niya to the point ang sarap na niyang saksakin! Hahaha! And I was so scared with this novel. What if ma-returned siya? Sabi nila, hindi naman masamang magkaroon ng returned manuscript. Doon ka nga daw natuto. Ang sa akin lang, sawang-sawa na kasi ako sa returned! Hahaha~~ Napapaghalata `no? Then iyon nga, trilogy na naman ito. Pangalawa na ito. Bumibinggo na ako kapag na-returned na naman ito! Nyahehe!

So am I annoyed. Pero sige na nga, magte-take risks ako. Naalala ko, sinabi ko doon sa kuwento ni Ares, "Hindi takot mag-take ng risks ang mga businessmen". So sa sarili ko naman, I am a future businesswoman so why should I be afraid to? So please. pray again. for my sanity.

xx
Cady Lorenzana

An Impossible Dream

Hi. Good evening! ~~ Today is a happy day for me. Why? Because I got the chance to have a picture with my college schoolmate major major crush, James Torres. So let me tell you about him.

The day that I first met James, I instantly had a crush on him. He was walking in our cafeteria when my classmate told me about him. She said she already saw the guy and he was so cute. And because I'm a sucker of cute guys, I immediately feels so excited to see him. And boom! The excitement went to happiness when I first laid my eyes on his handsome face that I want to make a scene in the caf just because of him! I want to push backward my chair then when he will walk in the aisle so he'll gonna notice me because were going to bump to each other. But then, I am a shy type of girl, (Di lang masyadong halata, Hehe!) So I didn't. I dont have enough courage to do that too! Haha!

Then we found out details about him. We got to know his name, his course and where he lives at! We got to know to that he's a soccer player, a grandson of owner of the big manufacturing company in front of our school, and also a celebrity. He was in a musical teleserye of Sarah G in ABS-CBN, Idol. He is also a drummer. He was everything a girl wanted to have. Looks, charms, money and a good guy because he's not a snob. If you tell "Hi" to him, he will also say "Hi" to you and  wave at you. He's such a cutie. But because of this attitude, of course, there are many girls out there that do have a crush on him.

All of my classmates knew that I like James. Whenever I saw him, I will always tell them, Oh My God, my crush! And I always tell a joke to them that he is my boyfriend and everything. But that's just a joke, I know. Even if he was everything I like, I know that he's just an Impossible Dream.

I know I'm not pretty. I know I'm not smart. I'm not a celebrity. I'm not kind. He was like a star and I'm just a stone lying in the land. We are poles apart. I may say to my classmates, "Oh, He's my boyfriend" but I'm just saying that just to have fun. I don't take it seriously. Why would I take it seriously if I know we are different?

 I'm a romance writer but I don't believe that what is happening in my books happened in real life. I may write stories like that, but I know it will not happened to me. I just dream. Because in dreams, you are free. There is no conflict like jealousies and insecurities. You just have to think of a happily ever after and you got no problems with that. Oh, maybe there is one thing---and that is, it will not happened to reality. The reality where you are living, Baby.


xx
Cady

To write books...

Good evening! ~~ I just want to share my plans in writing. Yes, I have plans. I am not that lazy though. Just slight! Joke! I'm really lazy and most of the times busy in my social network accounts. Lol. I mean, I'm also studying and I don't have all the time in writing because I do have responsibilities in my family, studies, dogs and Bubble Safari . Hahahaha. Sorry.

I already said this in one of my recent post. I'm planning to make a trilogy. AGAIN. My first plan went to the trash bin because the first book was returned to me and I think that there's no hope in revising that. I just wished that this second one would be a success.

The Playboy Millionaires Trilogy:

Its about 3 brothers, I mean half brothers who are all playboys, businessmen and millionaires. The names of the hero's and some of the characters were also related about money/accounting and business.

The Playboy Millionaires 1: In Love With Cash

I'm currently writing this one. Just because I recently read Newlyweds of Convenience by Jessica Hart, I'm trying to have a marriage for convenience type of story. I think its a cute type of story and I challenge myself to write one.

The Playboy Millionaires 2: Playing With Stock

Childhood Sweethearts/Playmates and became pretend lovers kind of story.

The Playboy Millionaires 3: The Price of Love

A secretly in love guy with his sisters best friend.

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The Event Planners - a series with my writer friends, Nikki Del Rosario, Nikki Karenina, Skye Reyes, Luna King and me.

My story, Callie's story, will be a secretly in love best friend to her hero! I don't want to be the first one with this because I'm afraid of taking the risk of doing again in best friend love stories! I always fail! Hahaha!

Camp Speed 5: Fall Into Me

Its also a series with my writer friends, Nikki Karenina, Skye Reyes, Marione Ashley, Nikki Del Rosario and of course, yours truly. XD And because I'm the last one with the first five, I'm not yet doing anything---except for the teaser and concept of this. But I already have the concept so I think it would be easy for me. I just need pressure. Chos! My plan is that the hero is a secretly in love (again) guy to his late best friend's sister. This would be like my first novel, Happily Ever After in His Arms, I think...? Ho-ho.

Loving The Playboy

And yes! A playboy again. But I'm not yet sure with this...because this would be a story of my life! Hahaha

Ares Story (still don't have a title)

I already made a story for Ares---Artemis father in I'll stay in love with you---but because I think thats a major fail, I do have another plan for him! Ha-ha! But I will do this if ever it will have the feedback of return. If revision or a miracle approve, I will not pursue this kind of story anymore... The concept is...a secret! Chos! Still finalizing...

So what do you think? Do you think an 18 year old super lazy girl can do all of this? Hahaha! Just please pray for my sanity.

xx

Cady

Trust

Good evening! Last Monday I met a guy in a chat site. I felt bored that night thats why I went there. Then mukha namang mabait ang guy na ito dahil hindi siya iyong lalaking madalas kong i-disconnect. So I consider chatting him and add him sa facebook. And yes, sa Cady, dahil hindi iyon ang personal account ko.

I told Riyan what happened. Ako naman kasi iyong tipo ng taong palaging sinasabi ang lahat sa kanya. Parang diary ko kaya iyon. Then hindi naman niya gaanong pinansin. Until today.

Nakasabay ko silang maka-chat and I told him na sorry kung mukha akong boring kausap ngayon kasi may ka-chat pa akong iba bukod sa `yo. Sinabi ko nga naka-chat ko rin iyong guy na sinabi ko sa kanya. Sabi niya, di naman daw niya masyadong pinansin iyong k-in-opy ko na pag-uusap namin from that chat site. Sabi niya, wala naman daw siyang karapatan na mag-intrude sa freedom ko kaya hinayaan na lang niya. Pero may sinabi siya sa akin.

This was his words:

HIM: but i strongly feel that he is an Indian and he is trying to cheat you

  HIM: i dont knowHIM: i may be wrong aloshis closing remarks looks like he is trying to fish

  some men are like that

  they act smart and decent in the begning

 HIM: they leave a bite for others to get attracted

  thats my view

(marami pa sana akong gustong idagdag, nga lamang, baka mabasa ni toooot at maghinala siya) :P


At ako naman itong si Tanga, kinontra ko p ang sinabi niya. Feeling ko tuloy, ang mean ko. Siya na kaya iyong concern sa akin tapos bigla ko pa siyang sinabihan na "Maybe it was also your style to others". Then kinopy paste niya nang kinopy paste ang line na iyon. Hindi man niya sabihin, feeling ko, nasaktan siya dahil sa sinabi ko. Siguro dahil inisip ko na katulad ng guy na iyon, ganoon rin siya. Kahit alam kong ang totoo ay hindi naman.

I have so much trust to Riyan. And I know I had his trust, too. Lahat na yata, napag-usapan namin. Sabi nga niya sa akin, mas matagal pa raw niyang nakakausap ako kaysa sa mga friends or relatives niya sa telepono. Paano, ang dami naming kuwento sa isa't isa. He was my bestest friend. I like his frankness when it comes to me. Ang honest-honest niya to the point na minsan nakakairita na ang pagka-honest niya! Hehe ~~~


xx
Cady

Of stress and plot...

Today is a very stressful day! First day in the morning, I almost shout at our room telling my classmates I forgot to bring a calculator. We have 2 exams for the day that badly needs a calculator, Taxation and Financial Accounting 2. I left my calculator at home because I "tried" to study at my room last night and I forgot to put it in my bag when I left. Good thing I was able to borrow from my classmate in BSA because there first class doesn't use calculator.

Exam in Tax was okay. Its hard, maybe because we can't compute some of the problems but some theories there are okay. I studied a little in Tax that's why I was able to answer some. But in FA and Law, I didn't so my exam is a total disaster. Especially that I didn't expected that our exam would be that hard!

I don't have that much problem in Financial Accounting because I knew how my teacher made exams. It was more on theories and less computations/problems. But darn! This semi-final exam is more on problems! I tried to study in my vacant hour with the subject and I just studied the theories and never look at the problems! So think how miserable I am while taking that darn exam! And law---I thought it would be easy too because I've heard that our example would be just True or False. But darn! Even if its just a True or False type of exam, I was miserable again. Why? Because I didn't study again and I thought that our exam is more in situational problems. Its more on terms that I really haven't look at.

But while answering and try to review for my exams, I got the time to think of a plot. And yessss, A PLOT! For a new trilogy I would like to start. Hahahah! Darn you, Accounting! Its all because of you!

Because of my major and course, I love to have this trilogy that is related with that. Like the names of the characters and all. Stock, Bond and Cash! Ho-ho. And I also thought of a name for the trilogy. But it will still be a secret. Why? Because I don't know if I really would pursue this. But maybe... Maybe, I will. Sembreak itineraries?! I hope I could.

#Nonsense post


xx
Cady

Differences

Love cannot change what is meant to be.

 Like the man in his own destiny.

 `Cause without compatibility, 

There is no reason to be happy.

Above is a stanza from a poem I made years ago. And I feel like I was hit by that line because of the conversation me and HIM had last Saturday....

I already asked him. What are we? What do you think of me?

And he said he still haven't had a girlfriend so he doesn't have experience on that. He told me he saw me as his "Good friend". That we have a lot of DIFFERENCES. I agree with that. We are different. He's 22, I'm 18. His passion is far-far away from mine and he lived in a far away place from mine. So how it will be? He had different priorities from mine.

I was like... hurt? Yeah. Because I realized how complicated it was. He made me see it. And it feels bad that sometimes I feel like he's special for me but we....

I don't know what to say. We are not compatible so maybe, there is no reason for me to be happy. Just like what I said in the stanza above.

xx

Cady

T_T

I have the urge to kill a character again. And yes, really KILL. Hahaha. Joke!

Its just that, why Ares is like this? He shouldn't be like this. Before what happened to my laptop, I love writing his story. I was so excited and thought it would be beautiful. But now, I'm near at the ending, I feel that its... you know, what I mean. I want to abandon him. And kill him! Hahahahah!

I'm having a hard time writing. And I fucking hate it. To the core. I feel like I'm so lazy. I need to have 5 approved manuscripts before the year ends and I still have two, and well, three maybe because of my translation w/c is for minor revision and I am expecting it would be approved next time I will have the feedback.

Then last night, there's a new plot that pops to my mind for Ares' story. I am torn of abandoning the story and making a new one. And its so frustrating I want to kill him! Hahahah! He's such a pain in the ass.

But anyway, I decided to continue this story and if ever it will be returned, I'm going to pursue that new plot.

Please pray for my sanity.

xx
Cady

I'll try to understand.

Good evening! Today, I got good news from HIM. He told me, he got the admission for CASD---for masters. I am so happy for him, really. Its just 18 seats and he was one of the 18 who had the seat for masters. I'm proud of him. And because of that, I will try to understand the situation we will be after it.

Last Friday I posted about my feelings about understanding him. Its hard for me but as days passed, I realized, I really should understand him. He told me that he's just in top 20 and if ever 2 will not turn up for the interview, he can have a seat. And because 5 people didn't turn up in the interview, he got the seat. I realized, its hard competing in that 18 people that are highly expected intelligent people.

I know how it feels when you are with the people who are really intelligent. Pressure will kill you. I already experience that in my first course. All of my classmates were intelligent. I am not used in that kind of environment. If you have read my post about "Buhay BSA", you'll know what I feel and experience in one of the toughest year in my life. I need to study well so I can belong with them. Its like in the case of him.

So I'll try to understand. I'll try not to nag him? Ha-ha. I'll try to cope up with the situation because I know how it feels. I'll also try to focus with mine, (which is his request) Ha-ha! I need to be serious with my studies and well, with my writings, too!

xx
Cady

Realizations 101

Last friday, nawalan kami ng klase sa Finance dahil na-require kaming um-attend ng seminar na nagta-tackle about sa mga international students sa school namin. Marami kasi sa amin na foreigners...and most of them are Nigerians. Actually, mayroon akong classmate na Nigerian sa isang class ko. Sa Marketing. Irregular student kasi ako kaya kung saan-saan akong section napupunta! He-he. Sa Department ko, walang Nigerian student kaya hindi pa ako nakaka-experience kahit na ba last year pa naglipana ang mga Nigerians sa school.

Everytime na papasok iyong classmate kong Nigerian, lagi akong nakatingin sa kanya. Well, hindi lang ako kundi ang iba ko rin na classmate. We we're like, "Oh, Ninang mo,". Naging expression na naman iyon kapag nakikita namin siya. O di kaya kapag may kakaiba sa kanya, sasabihin namin, "Taray ng Ninang mo"...

So I was like, natamaan ako sa seminar na in-attend-an namin. Na-guilty ako. Hindi lang kasi ang mga classmate namin na Nigerian ang palagi naming, sabihin na nating, pinupuna namin palagi. He-he! Hindi rin kami namamansin ng ganoon. Naalala ko, one time, nagtanong sila sa akin sa canteen at hindi ako nakaimik kasi sobrang natakot ako. When the truth is, mababait naman sila.

Na-realize ko, paano kung ako naman ang nagpunta sa ibang bansa? Kunwari, naging exchange student ako o doon ako nagtrabaho. Baka maging ganoon din ako. No friends tapos palagi na lang pinagtitinginan ng mga tao o di kaya pinagtatawanan kasi kakaiba. So kahapon at ngayon, palagi ko ng sinasaway iyong friends ko na, "O, `wag na tayong ganyan, ha". Tapos ngumingiti-ngiti na rin ako sa kanila.

Buti na lang talaga, nakasama kami sa seminar na iyon. Free food na, na-inspire pa ako sa message ng seminar, and well, na-cute-an rin ako sa speaker. So Thank You Mr. Kurt Paolo Sevilla na siyang nagpaliwanag ng lahat kaya nalinawan ako tungkol dito. :)


xx
Cady

Doubts.

Dahil nasira ang laptop ko last last week, hindi ko natapos agad ang kuwento ni Ares. Na noon pa naman, bago ito masira ay tuwang-tuwa kong sinusulat. Pero nang maayos ang laptop ko at hindi naman na-reformat ang mga files, naisip kong baguhin ang kuwento niya. Why? Its because of the characters.

Malaki ang feeling ko na ang characters ko ang magiging problema ko. Si Artemis saka iyong heroine ni Ares. Actually, nakagawa na ako ng novel kay Ares at naipass ko na rin siya. And it turned out to be "tumataginting na return" Hahahaha! Iyong plot ko daw kasi talaga ang problema. Binuhay ko kasi ang patay! :P Ewan ko ba, nag-dream high naman ako masyado na magagawa ko ang ganoong klaseng kuwento. Ayon, na-returned tuloy. Sa isip ko kasi, ayaw ko na ibang babae ang makakatuluyan ni Ares. Na single father talaga ang dating niya! Hehehe! Kaya nag-isip na ako ng bagong istorya sa kanya.

At ito nga, nasa chapter seven na ako. Dati, na-comment sa akin ang tungkol kay Artemis. Na nag-iisip at nag-a-act daw siya ng hindi akma sa edad niya. May mga ganoon naman daw na bata pero hindi daw na-justify sa case niya. May ginawa ako this time, para ma-justify. Na sana nga ay ma-justify ko talaga! Hindi kasi ako nagtitiwala sa sarili ko eh. Iyon namang sa heroine ni Ares, iyong character niya kasi, puwede kaya siyang maging heroine? Errr. She's so clumsy. T___T

So iyon, sana lang talaga kahit ipa-revise muli ito. Itutuloy ko na ang dati kong ginawa. Sana lang talaga.

PS: May nangopya ng I'll Stay In Love With You sa Wattpad. Haay. http://www.wattpad.com/5942383-i%27ll-stay-in-love-with-you-on-going


xx
Cady

I really don't understand.

According to wikipedia, Understanding is a psychological process related to an abstract or physical object, such as a person, situation, or message whereby one is able to think about it and use concepts to deal adequately with that object. Understanding is a relation between the knower and an object of understanding. Understanding implies abilities and dispositions with respect to an object of knowledge sufficient to support intelligent behavior.

But really, how do we understand each other? The thing of you understanding someone, even if you knew there's a way that he could do something to be like that.

He told me he needed to be serious this time because he'll going for masters. Hard studies and everything. I know that it we'll be really hard. But I just 'know'. Its hard to 'understand'. He told me, things between us last year will not be like for this year. He said he will not be able to chat me like before.

We have a very honest relationship. He told me everything. He was frank to me. I like him for that. I try to be very honest, too, with him. But sometimes, I can't. Just like last Friday when he told me that. I said I understand, but deep inside me. I really don't understand.


I can say that I'm also busy. I'm a full-time student and I need to manage my time between the procrastination around me, my studies, the novels that I intend to write and my hobbies. Time is very important to me. But I managed to talk to him. To have more time with him. I managed time with everything.

I know, I shouldn't have write this post. Why? I don't have the right to him. He's not even mine. We're just friends but sometimes, I feel that he was my ........ I don't want to assume but that's what I feel. Even if most of the times, when my friends will tell me he is my boyfriend, I correct them, "No, he's just my best friend." Because I think that's what he thinks of me. But... uggh! I don't have the right to tell him that I'm jealous with your studies because I shouldn't be jealous for all of things around him because I am just his friend. I clearly knew that studies are very important. He even pointed that out to me, that he's studies is more important thab "me"...but...errr... maybe because we have a very different personality. My studies are important but I think everything around me is also important.

My feelings and thoughts are so complicated. Maybe because we also have a complicated relationship.


xx
Cady

Finally!

Finally! Approved na si Athena! I was so damn happy because this manuscript ay sobra akong pinahirapan. Kaya naman napatalon ako sa tuwa nang makitang approved na rin siya. Sa wakas.


Finally, tapos na rin ang midterm exams. Pasang-awa nga lang sa biology at nanganganib sa Finance. Sa ibang subject naman, sana okay lang. Feel ko naman okay lang. Iyong tax nga lang, ewan ko. Namali ko ang directions. Hahaha! Eh wala naman kasing nakalagay, pero sinabi pala ng prof na ilagay na lang ung letter sa gilid. Eh binulugan ko. Well, hindi lang talaga ako madalas nakikinig sa teacher. Nyahaha. Pero feeling ko naman iko-consider un. Aba!

Finally, gawa na rin si Baby Cady. Just so damn happy that she's back. Magsasama kami bukas. Umaga gabi, kahit walang panty! Chos!

Finally, tapos na rin ang blog post ko na puro finally ang start ng first sentence sa bawat paragraph. Finally! :)

Azec Chase ♥

Gusto kong umiyak

Iyong feeling na nanood ka ng movie na sobrang naka-relate ka. Iyong theme na ikaw ang palaging nandiyan sa tabi niya, pero iba pa rin ang hinahanap niya. Gusto kong umiyak. Pero hindi ko magawa....
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Dahil katabi ko siya habang pinapanood iyon. Katabi ko ang lalaking matagal ko ng gusto, pero iba pa rin ang hanap niya. </3


#Highschool #TheReunion </3

The thing about supernaturals...

I was thinking of writing about this post yesterday while reading Unearthly by Cynthia Hand. This book is in my shelf for more than three months now and I just have the thought of holding it again (yes, because I didn't even bother to tear the plastic cover of it and just place it somewhere in my room after buying it) yesterday. I love angels and I want to learn more about it because I do want to finish an angel story. But because of the one I wrote (yes, I tried to write one, but I didn't pass nor finish it) that seems of lacking something. I think its more on the angel things/bla'blas, I stopped even if I'm nearly done. So I said to myself, I don't want to read anymore. Joke! Hahaha. Its just that aside from being busy, I lost the will of reading angel stories because I don't think I can write one. Chos!

But then, I told myself, its been months and I reread the reviews again in Goodreads. I bought that book because of the reviews. And because there were no classes on Monday and Tuesday, that means, I will have a long vacation. I started it yesterday and whoa! I can't believe I will instantly like the book. Its just interesting and not boring unlike some of the Angel books I've read. Less on narration, more on dialogues! I love books like that. I love reading the dialogues because well, I think narrations are boring! And of course, the story is more  interesting than others because its different.

Anyway, I want to end talking about Unearthly. Its just a part of my main topic because its all about supernatural stuff. Angels, Vampires, Witches, Demigods and all that. I will admit, I'm not more on english books because aside from the fact that english books makes my pocket cry, sometimes, i found some of them boring to read. Its just too long and more parts are---I think, unnecessary. So if I buy an english book, I mostly buy romance with fantasies stuff because I love romance and I think things about fantasies are cool!

So sometimes, I feel like I want to be a supernatural, too. Like the angels, they have wings. White and big and looks so powerful. Vampires---who looks so hot even if they bite! Hahaha. Witches---who do potions and Demigods that even they have some abnormalities like having dyslexia, they are still the son of a God in Olympus and they have powers like for the son of poseidon---water, Athena for wisdom and so on.

One time, a man tweeted me on twitter about the book the lost hero. We talked about it there and he said something about it, like he feels like he was a demigod because he is experiencing some of the things that demigods are experiencing. Hahaha. I was like rolling my eyes that time. Its just fiction and something like... Oh well! But anyway, when we read, sometimes we love to have it on real life. Like we are thinking we have that angels, witches, vampires and the places they have been. Honestly, I want to have a real camp half blood here in the Philippines. Yes, real, as in there are also demigods and I belong to that, too!!! Nyahahaha. And I feel like the person I said a while ago! Hahahaha. So dreamy! And also, one time, (please, don't tell me that I'm crazy for thinking like this---hahahaha!) I thought of me being a vampire because whenever I rub a little in my neck, it always turns red. So when my classmates notice about me having a red neck, I will answer, because I'm a vampire!. (Just for fun, Hahaha)

I admit I have a wild imagination. Thoughts are like a running river in my mind. It never stops. I always think of something whenever I see something fun and something interesting. So don't be shock that I wrote this post and tell some weird things about me. When I'm reading, I feel like I'm there. One of the characters there and living and existing in that kind of place. But after it, I will thought that supernatural beings are just fiction. Not reality. So even if its hard, I will get over it. Its just a dream that I should need to be awake.

Azec Chase ♥

Missing my baby..

As I wrote in my last post, I said there that my laptop is in the repair shop. Yeah, she's sick. My baby cady is sick. Hu-hu. And I feel like I'm also going sick, too!

Last night, ang sakit-sakit ng throat ko----and yes, hanggang ngayon. Nahawa na ako sa laptop ko. So naisip ko, baka naman kaya masama ang pakiramdam ko dahil sa laptop? So I called Sony Lipa. Sabi nila, may papalitan daw na piyesa. So parang ang dating sa akin, matagal pa bago ko makukuha. >< LCD raw ang problema eh. Haay. Naiiyak na ako.

I miss my laptop so damn much. Gusto kong magsulat but I can't dahil hirap ako sa PC namin... Di na ako sanay. Ang sakit pa sa mata ng monitor nito. Nag-try ako sa notebook pero mas tinamad ako doon... Pero ta-try ko mamaya. Promise. >< I just miss my baby... Haay, kailan ka ba babalik?

Anyway, yesterday I just feel happy because of Riyan said to me! Hi-hi. May seat na siya for Masters! Out of 1,000+ students, nasa top 40 siya kaya makakapag-aral na siya ng masters. Iba na talaga ang...masipag. Chos! Sana ibigay na lang niya sa akin ang utak niya. Pangarap ko pa rin namang maging Civil Engineer. Nyehehe.

Azec Chase ♥

Pissed off.

Since Tuesday---no internet connection in our house. Boring as hell because there's no classes, flood everywhere. I feel like I'm in uncivilized place the whole week. And holy crap! Just yesterday, I bought my laptop to SONY again for repair. What a damn week. I miss everything in cyber world.

Pissed off.

Azec Chase ♥

Movies that made me cry.

Good evening. Because of watching this MMK episode, I suddenly felt the urge to write this post about movies that made me cry. Mababaw ang luha ko lalo na pagdating sa mga aso na story. Kaya don't be shock kung ano ang nasa number one list ko:

1. Hachi: A Dog's Tale

I still remember the time when I watched this movie. Nasa baba ako ng bahay namin habang hawak-hawak ang phone ko. Yeah, sa cp po ako madalas manood ng movies. Ni-recommend ito ng isa sa mga friends ko kahit hindi niya pa pinapanood. At pagdating ko kinabukasan sa klase, sinisi ko iyong classmate na iyon kung bakit pugto ang mata ko ng pumasok ako. Ang sakit-sakit ng mata ko dahil sa kakaiyak sa movie na ito. Wala pa ako sa kalahati ng movie ay naiiyak na ako dahil napi-feel ko na iyong mangyayari. Tapos para pang tanga iyong Kuya ko na tingin nang tingin sa akin dahil iyak nga ako nang iyak. Eh ano bang magagawa ko? Nakakaiyak talaga, eh. Isipin mo, 10 years nag-intay ung aso sa amo niya eh hindi na naman babalik pa iyong amo niya. Grabe, sana lang magkaroon ako ng aso katulad ni Hachi. Ahmm. Guji(my dog) sana ganito ka rin. Chos!

2. The Last Song

I first read the book and sobrang umiyak din ako sa book. Akala ko, hindi na ako iiyak sa movie pero umiyak pa rin talaga ako nang bongga. Hindi ako about sa lovestory na-touch o umiyak eh. Its about the heroine and her father. Iyong feeling na, akala natin iyong taong sinisisi natin ang may kasalanan ng lahat ng paghihirap natin pero hindi naman pala. Tapos nalaman pa niyang may sakit iyong Tatay niya. That time, umiiyak talaga ako. Kasi saka lang tayo nagbibigay ng care sa tao kapag alam natin na mamatay na siya. Medyo natamaan ako. Medyo lang naman. Chos! Pero nung namatay naman ung Dad ko, hindi naman ako nagsisi dahil pinakita ko talaga sa kanya na love ko siya kahit wala naman siyang sakit.

3. A Walk To Remember

Unlike the Last Song, hindi ko nabasa ang book pero nakakaiyak pa din. Ung end part ako napaiyak talaga. Kasi kahit alam nung boy na may sakit si girl, pinakasalan pa rin niya. Pinatunayan lang talaga niya na mahal na mahal niya ung heroine. Haay, grabe lang. Naalala ko, favorite line ko pa dito ung: Our love is like the wind... I can't see it, but I sure can feel it.

4. If Only

Tandang-tanda ko pa rin ang time kung kailan ko pinanood ang movie na ito. Burol ng Ninang ko. So isipin niyo na lang kung gaano ako nagmukhang baliw habang nanonood sa cellphone ko (yes, sa cp na naman ako nanonood, o di ba, parang portable?) Na-bored kasi ako kasi wala naman kaming ginagawa. Naisip kong manood ng movie sa cellphone. Nakakakilabot nung about sa part sa taxi driver. As in parang binundol ung puso ko. Tapos nung part na patapos na, pauwi na kami nun. Nasa van ako, habang nasa SLEX, naiyak ako. Kasi nakakaiyak talaga kasi naiba iyong nangyari. Ung boy ung namatay. Na-realize niya lahat ng ginawa niya kaya naman sinacrifice niya iyong life niya for the girl kasi alam niya na mamatay iyong girl.

5. A Millionaire's First Love

Ang peg ng story nito ay medyo hawig pala sa A walk to remember. May sakit rin kasi iyong girl dito. Pero sad ending na naman ito. pero okay lang. Nakakaiyak pero maganda. Ang guwapo ni Hyun Bin. *for more information, please see my top 10 movie post.

Azec Chase ♥